julie :)

so like I like this guy. like so fucking much and its just this situationship rn but I really really wanna kiss him but I dont know if I am going to ruin it by doing it yk?? I mean I didn't know for sure if I liked him like that but now, just today, I saw my old crush and I really thought ''why did I like him bruv?? Y is so so so much better'' and in the same moment I realised how fucked I am bc I like Y so much wtf

she is like the meaning of get knocked out stand up again (ge smak daun, gyon op nodotaim) which I like too. it makes you strong. and being strong is >
          
          so now I am done. I hope I am going to like S4567 of the 100 but first I am going to watch S1 again bc I love that season. 
          
          NOW I am done. leidon.

I just wanted Octavia and Lincoln to be happy together yk? have kids and such. but now stupid Pike killed them. speaking of him, Bellamy. why in hell did Bellamy (and Monty) join him?? he was leading them to war how blind were those two exactly??? 
          
          than, last thing, I want to say that I would love to learn Trigedasleng. like how cool it that? the whole 'jus drein jus daun' and 'yu gonplei ste odon' is like wow yk? and also the way they can fight. Jesus H. Christus. so fucking cool. 
          
          so now I am going to search for some nice Lincoln and Octavia pictures to change my profile into. 
          
          
          yeah I am not done yet I am having way to much fun watching the 100. yk if this whole bomb dropping and when the earth dies etc. I would love for the grounders to become real. like how fucking cool. how fucking cool I cant even explain it. I would be grounder for sure love it. but the death by a number cuts is a down side ig. but then if you just dont fuck up.... look at Octavia; shes badass right? Raven too. I didnt like her at first but god is she a hero. it is a real shame with her leg though. she didnt deserve that at alllll. 
          HOLY SHIT I FORGOT FINN
          HOW I- I AM GOING TO FLOAT MYSELF BYE
          Finn my love forgive me. killed by Clarke. yeah I mean I would have wanted the same thing. better by one stab than to suffer 18 deaths right? oh well it aint gonna happen anyway to me *knocks on wood* so nothing to worry about *knocks on wood x2*
          
          okay now I am done. John Murphy and Emori are nice too btw. I didnt like John at first bc obvious reasons but now I actually do like him:) okay when I said Im done I lied lol
          last thing now I am serious. I think i am going to live a little more like a grounder. not like the whole die part of it but more like Octavia ond Lincoln. (the ond means and/or but than in one word). like Lincoln to help people I love and to fight like him for justice (jus drein jus daun) but I want to be like Octavia in the caring for your own and to learn like her.

heeeeyy
          
          okay that was cringe but alr
          
          so I am watching the 100 (I am currently at S4) and I just wanted to say that I love love love this show but also hate it. I love the first season!! like only the kids, no mean adults etc. aand Lincoln and Octavia. god do I love them. they are like my go to couple now. they are fucking amazing change my mind. 
          then, I also love the fact that the grounders are there. ik they were the enemy but I absolutely love them bye- I would have loved to see Lincoln and Octavia as trikru together and just yk fight against other clans or against the 100 for my part bc that fight was lowkey amazing, especially bc well Lincoln and Octavia. I do think that the fact that there were 300 grounders killed is a good one because the 100 were not going to live
          
          then S2, which I liked but I liked S1 more. I do not like the adults in this serie because they are the worst. if Abby were dead I would have liked it too. same with Jaha, they are just bullies in my eyes. I do like Kane though, but not in space, up there he was an asshole. okay so the thing I do like about this season is the Maya and Jasper couple which was cute and duh Octavia (and Lincoln but he was a reaper for a short time which was booo) the ending was a little sad though, they could have saved Maya atleast. like put her in that suit thing and bring her to the airlock in Arkadia, they could have looked for solutions there! 
          
          up to S3 bc in do not have enough room to fit my whole story like this. in this seaso I liked the Lexa and Clarke couple alot but I hated the AI and A.L.I.E thing. it just doesn't make sense in my head. the whole earth was destroyed but those stupid chips werent??? and ofc Lincolns death AND Lexas death. I am going to be honest Lexas death was sad but Clarke will live bc she will destroy the earth eventually so Lexas death was *blows raspberry* but Lincolns death. when I tell you I cried for 2 hours I cried for 2 hours. jesus christ that hurt like a bitch!!

so we were talking about this guy named Austin, who was snapping my friend. he is from arkansas so well I thought of the song. yk like 'Alabama Arkansas, I do love my ma and pa, but now the way I do love you'. yeah? so when I say that when I come to the part where they sing ''man oh man, youre my bestfriend' in my head and the boy that I like sings it aloud and everyone just looks at him and I smile and finish the verse saying ''I scream it to the nothingness''