dreamboat queen

e ama

gece uyuyamamamın sebebi sen miydin izlediğim film mi...hell if i know

there is a big hole in my vanishing heart

here we fUCKING go again .

abime gidince falaen downı piyanoda çalmayı öğrencm

selam canum

i realized that the simplest thing can comfort me if im interested in it. which is. good to know. i get a bittersweet happiness when i see that i can actually find pleasure in such ordinary things like lofi osts, beautiful fanarts, yt theory videos etc... and t'sais, at this point in life i dont expect anything extreme to be happy. i accepted the fact that things that happen in my life have specific patterns that periodically repeat. and even if those patterns are usually saddening, even disappointing, its worth observing what those patterns are evolving into. it's... not that bad to have a gloomy life, i suppose. i love seeing the tiny little details enwrapped in the big picture, you know what i mean? life is not that bad, after all. it sure is exhausting, and yet, due to this, somehow exciting. or i dont know what the fuck i am talking about and i am subconsciously trying to beat my anxiety's ass up under the influence of the beautiful, calming song im listening to rn. either ways, im okay. i can keep going. but im sleepy what the fuck ITS HALF PAST TWO??

hhhHh kpm çok gzl

man.

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