just-close-your-eyes

The saddest kind of sad is when your tears can't even drop and you feel nothing.
          It's like the world has just ended. 
          You don't cry.
          You don't hear.
          You don't see.
          You just stay there.
          For a second the heart dies...

Sometimes when I say
          'I'm okay!', 
          I need someone to look me in the eyes 
          hug me tight and say
          'I know you are not!' 

Those minutes where i am alone, just me and my pillow. A lot. I think about everything, anything. It varies from 'What am I doing with my life?' to 'Did I have homework?' The room is so silent, but my mind is so loud. It drives me crazy beacause the things I would never thing about, I think about. Sometimes I hate it because it brings up the things I rather never think about again. 
          The split second before sleep is the most active second of my life...