Ngl y’all, things have not been fantastic. My mental health seems to take a rapid decline during winter and I’ve really been struggling with oversleeping and anxiety along with upcoming school exams. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore,
I feel like I just go through the days waiting for something to break me out of this exhausting cycle. I genuinely feel so alienated from my own life and the only person I can blame is myself. And if I’m being totally honest, I don’t know what this means for writing more books anytime soon.
I’m constantly scribbling down creativity bursts that I get but for the most part they’re just silly little fluffs or angsts pieces. I don’t plan on giving up writing completely but right now I just don’t have the energy or capability of doing it.
This may seem quite idiosyncratic, and sudden but I really don’t think it’s ever been quite this bad. But, I fortunately do have networks of people that I can talk to and they help me through this rough time so I urge you to find people that you can trust and discuss any issues you may be having.
I love you all, and I want to ensure you that I’m okay, and I’m trying to be better for you guys. Please, please, take care of yourselves and make sure you eat, it can be quite frightening but I promise you’ll thank yourself later, and drink plenty of water and take time out of your day to breathe and let yourself relax. You are so important to me and I care about you so please look after yourself.
You are all so valid and beautiful and I hope you all have a lovely week <3