Ash

im sorry to say that i will be leaving this account aswell! i just cant imagine being here without them and all by myself. i know what i did was very messed up and wrong and theres no fixing it or going back in time. but just know that if youre reading this, cass, im very sorry for all that ive done to you. your wishes came true :)!! i no longer have a reason to get out of bed. i just lay there hoping one day ill be able to fix all this even though i know thats not possible. ive tried and tried to fix things over and over but i just dont know what else to do about it. i just wanna look at my reflection in a mirror and punch it until my knuckles are bloody and have shards of glass stuck in them. i cant stand looking at myself anymore. and what did i even do this for? youre not gunna reply or come crawling back to me. honestly i feel kinda how i felt back in 7th grade. i feel alone again. but this time you arent there to help me or reassure me. im all alone this time. im glad you got what you wanted. it turns out i am just a manipulative, controlling piece of shit :). i wish everyone who reads this a good life and i hope you all are having a good day. cass, if youre reading this thank you. for everything. bye luvs <3.

i hope you fucking find this and you realize how fucked up you made me. i hope your relationship crumbles and you can't find reason to get out of bed in the morning, because thats what you did to me. you sick bastard, asking me why i am the way i am. you asked a little too late. and you cant tell me what i can and cant do. i tried. for so fucking long i tried. but im tired of trying. i hate myself for ever loving you, piece of shit. 

Goodbye, for the last time.

i will no longer using this account. not only have i moved my writing to ao3, but the other person i share this account with has done something that has broken me. i am trying to cut all ties with them at the moment. i am logging out for good. if you want more of me, i will reply with my current account. 
          
          - Cass
          for the final time

Sorry for not updating "The Perks of A Second Life"! I've been caught up with some stuff at the moment. But when I get the chance, I will update it! 

I have the sudden inspiration and motivation to write an apocalypse au after watching "The Day After Tomorrow". I can pack so much angst into it that I might actually need to talk to a therapist about. You like Sapnap? Oops, he butned to death. You like Tubbo? Uh oh, poisonous gases killed him XD
          
          -Cass