Hey everyone, I hope you're all doing well. My book AUTUMN NIGHTS is temporarily on hold. The last chapter was posted on November 27, and after nearly two months, I feel it's time to explain why I stopped. The story was nearing its conclusion, with only ten or so chapters left, but life has been tough—rougher and sadder than expected.
In my loneliness, I find myself oddly grateful for the fleeting moments of happiness I once had, even if they came from those who disrespected and traumatized me in the past --- an unhealthy habit that i still find comfort. My nursing classes have started. New people, new beginnings, but I’m still the same old me. I feel lonely and miserable among these boring people. I see myself losing my spark bit by bit every day. I’m lonely, and the only thing I haven't lost yet in my life right now is myself and God. The academic pressure has been overwhelming, but I’m still holding on.
I’m not planning to permanently stop writing this book. Someday, definitely someday, I’ll restart it. But that day could take a month, two months, or maybe even a year to come. No matter how long it takes, I will definitely pick it up again. I still see the AUTUMN NIGHTS book cover in the back of my mind, recalling the effort I put into writing it, and the effort you put into reading it. I truly appreciate all of your support.
Right now, I don't have a choice but to pause. If the world didn't had a system of "earn money to live a life", life would've been a lot more happier. Sean and Noah’s story means a lot to me, and this is the first time I’m writing something this meaningful. So, I will return to it. Until then, goodbye (for now).
