I planned to edit 1772 words today, but caught a cold in the morning. I don't know why and how but when I try to write or want to edit my previous drafts, it ends up with me on the bed lying because of sickness. I really want to write and I know I'm pissing my readers off. As a reader, I also know how it feels to wait for a chapter. Because of me not updating my book, I lost a lot of readers and I'm not blaming them. It's totally my fault. 2-3 months is okay, but I'm not updating for nearly 5 months. I'm really sorry for that and also I know sorry can't solve everything. The biggest fault I did was I promised to update but failed to do that. Last few months, I promised many things to do but couldn't complete them and trust me, not able to keep promise gives you the worst feeling. I've always been a responsible girl, but here I'm proving myself an irresponsible girl. I'm feeling so low today thinking all about this. I'm trying so hard to write but my brain is just blank and I hate it the most. Moreover, the environment of Wattpad isn't helping me either. Wattpad isn't a writing platform anymore, it's more likely a dating app or roleplaying app. I just don't get the vibe from it. I really miss the old Wattpad. When I started writing, it was so peaceful here but now everyday here's happening many dramas. One more thing that I can't resist myself but to say that, follow for follow is strictly against the Wattpad rules. But some people may not know this or just choose to ignore this. I may be an irresponsible girl, but they're the most irresponsible here. I don't want to mention them but some people follow other people to get follow back and then they unfollow those other people and this way they're gaining followers. Shame on them. Enough saying, I just want to say I'm sick of everything here, I came here to write, not to watch some freaking cheap drama. Let's hope this time I can keep the promise, I can update and edit all the drafts that's left to be done. That's it.