mello🍫

Cause I'm sitting here, doing nothing but aging.
          I narrow my dear lunatic world to this one sentence for now. It's completely out of my own control and it annoys me deeply. The things I want to see or to possess all my life give me such a big agony and I can't even get them out of my head. I do not know what it's gonna happen, seriously; all I'm trying to do lately is to learn how to let things go on. 

Inside my heart is breaking, my make-up may be flaking but my smile still stays on. 

I'm so happy cause today i found my friends they're in my head... 

"Love of my life, you've hurt me, you've broken my heart and now you leave me.
          Love of my life can't you see
          Bring it back, bring it back
          Don't take it away from me
          Because you don't know what it means to me..."
          
          Yeah it was my birthday, and i was both happy and sad as always. I was growing up, I was leaving everything behind me, crying. Everything was going to get worse. Knew it. But still, despite everything, this melody calmed me down in that day. 
          
          "When i grow older, i will be there at your side to remind you how i still love you..." 

"I miss my friends and my guitar
          I'm knowing i can travel far
          But now i'm only standing here
          Completely paralyzed with fear..."
          
          Tell me, how long have you been like this? How long have you been trapped in the past? Tell me, how did you become such a coward, Mello?
          
          "But how did i become a coward..."

Sevgili Lawliet gibi tatlı krizine girmiş bulunmaktayım dünyayı yiyebilirim, uzun zamandır içimde yatan çiko manyaklığım ise canım Mello sağ olsun peşimi bırakmıyor. Ortak isim kullanırken, zevklerimiz de mi benzemeye başlıyor anlamadım :/

Gitsem nereye kadar, kalsam neye yarar... 

"Üç örümcek, önce kim ölecek?"
          
          Ah Lucia, ah güzel kızım. Gideli çok zaman oldu, ardından dağladığın yürekleri sana anlatmak çok zor.
          
          Önce sen kelebek kız, sen gittin. Ardında kocaman bir boşluk bırakarak. Ve prens...
          
          Prens kelebeğini kaybetti. Omzuna konan masum ve kırılgan kelebeği uçup gitmişti.
          
          Artık o da yok Lucia. Senin yanında. Şimdi kelebek kız ve prens ellerinde mandalinalarıyla gülerek koşuyorlar.
          
          Ardınızda kırık iki kalp bıraktınız, Mateusz ve Reena.
          
          Sondaki örümcek kim Lucia?
          
          A0023, 'mello 

Ocria'nın canı cehenneme. Tüm sinir sistemimi altüst ettiniz ağzına yandıklarım. Dünya 70 yıl sonra şu hale gelecekse gelmesin, ha ille geliyorum diyorsa ben bu konuşmayı terk ediyorum.
          
          A0023, 'mello

A dancer dies twice-
          Once they stop dancing and this first death is the more painful. 
          -Martha Graham
          
          Again we are full of the art side of the bangtan.