-leana-

i just read ease and actually its a good story but theres so many unanswered questions here

I just speed read all of your stories so uh... thanks

what the fuck is sooman smoking

i feel like it takes me an abnormally long time to get over someone. like i get that these things are different for everyone but i kinda creep myself out with how obsessed with other people i can get.
          
          i dated this kid for like 2 weeks. 
          
          first of all, he was super homophobic, before we even started talking he felt the need to announce that he didn't date bi girls because thats even more people for them to cheat with. i cried it out then forgot about it cause he made some comment about how cute i was.
          
          also, he was my coworker. not only that, but i was his manager and he was just barely done training when i realized there was something going on. at the time it didn't matter, especially because he would tell me how hot it was when i was bossy (tmi? maybe? i dont know.) but now it seems really wrong.
          
          another thing was our ages. i’m 18 and he’s 17 and we’re only like 7 months apart but for some reason i felt disgusted by it. despite being in a relationship with someone with an even bigger age gap before, i felt like i was doing something wrong. my boss somehow found out about this whole situation and kinda reinforced that mindset. they deadass had me thinking i was some nasty p*do.
          
          despite all these warning signs i still went and got emotionally involved with this boy. its been 4 months. he spent 3 of those months tormenting me and making fun of things that i told him. he knew he could get away with it because i had a soft spot for him. he was fired about a month ago by my boss for unrelated reasons. 
          
          yet i still keep holding onto what i thought he was. none of these things matter to the emotional side of me because i was in love with the way he made me feel. i went way deep way too fast and that just makes it even more difficult cause i had these ideas in my head of what we could be.
          
          i think im at the point where i’ve gotten over him, i just have to get over the idea of him.

what goes on in the mind of a 17 year old boy- i don’t understand 
          
          seriously someone help

do u recognize me mother

i just found outlines for my stories and damn i wish i had time to write cause bruh these couldve been so sexc

what’d i miss?

i unpublished all my incomplete works because i don’t see myself ever finishing them. i’m sorry. 

tw// ed
          
          adulting is stressful so ive fallen down a binge eating pit and i feel like im never going to get out, and to be honest i dont even think i want to. fuck adulting. fuck paying bills. fuck credit. fuck school. fuck my life. might as well just let the bad eating habits kill me before the stress from this election does.
          
          also i really want to work on my stories but im so behind on school work im probably not going to graduate lol. also i have an obsession with buzzfeed unsolved and sykkuno and that takes up a lot of my time.