I've stopped talking to people, hardly participate in competitions, lost confidence to speak up. Used to fight back when wronged, now I'm like... if something's wrong, it hurts a lot, and I can't even speak up . No one understands, no one wants to listen. I've got no friends, so thought I'd post here. No one knows me here, so might as well share . Sometimes it's really negative, I don't understand what's wrong with Indian parents . I chose writing over friends, don't make friends easily, don't trust people. It's sad, people turn mean on me, I feel like crying when I try to speak up, tears just flow .
I can't explain to my friends or my parents that I'm lonely, that I'm depressed . 5-6 years ago... I was 12 or 13 , and they made fun of me when I said I had no friends. They told the whole family, and it was a joke to them. I was so depressed, I'd just sit at home. Even now, my friends are mean, they bully me when they've got nothing else to do. They pretend to be nice, but leave me as soon as their other friends come around. It feels so lonely and isolated .
Even in class, I feel bullied. Teachers don't help, they taunt me too. Like, our new zoology teacher... he said, "You didn't understand anything, so I'll have to explain it differently." He didn't say it in a polite way it was clearly rude and very disrespectful. He targeted me 3 -4 times in just 1 hr class (you know his reason becz I was smiling in class which others were also doing but he just targeted me becz i don't complain about anyone ) it really hurts. This happened last Saturday . I didn't go to coaching today because I felt like crying. I can't face that teacher. It happens often, and I feel super lonely .
Indian parents, why are they like this? I get so negative seeing all this.
How is it at ur place ?
