karasu1fan

I also wanted to share something personal, because I feel like I owe you the truth about why I’ve been gone. It’s not just that I didn’t want to talk— I’m honestly the shyest person ever (but I always tried to push myself out my comfort zone just to have a conversation) and even though I want so badly to stay close to people, sometimes I just can’t bring myself to reach out. my mind convinces me everyone hates me, and it’s exhausting. 
          	
          	on top of that, these past few months have been some of the darkest I’ve ever lived through. there was a time when I wanted to delete not just Wattpad, but everything. I may not seem like someone who’d go through this, but I got caught up in things that nearly destroyed me — things I’m not proud of, and things I’m still trying to heal from. I’ve been getting help, and I’m working on it, but some days are still really hard.
          	
          	I’m sorry if this is too much to share, but I wanted you to know why I’ve been gone and why I’ve struggled to reach out. I’m trying my hardest, and I’m still here, even if I’m slower and quieter than before. thank you to anyone who’s stayed. I love you all more than words can say.
          	
          	chalant viky out-

ellaxxluvsu

@karasu1fan I wanted to add a few thing, but first, THEM FOR THE FOLLOW! I just wanted to make at least your day better, if not your situation by a lil bit. I've been through similar, where I felt like I was alone against the world. I'm not here to show sympathy. I'm here to support you. No matter what you do, say, or don't do. I will always appreciate you for being YOU. Not somebody that others want you to be. Just know that youre not alone is this world. Sending hugs and support from here! My discord is always open :D
          	  
          	  -Always here as your friend, Ella :) 
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karasu1fan

@suimaiii 
          	  
          	  hihii <3 thank you so much. even if we haven’t talked much, your words meant a lot. i really appreciate the love and support — it made me feel a little less alone. sending love backkk <3
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ellaxxluvsu

@karasu1fan heyyy! How ya doin? I just wanna check in and make sure you're doing okay! Make sure to rest and take care of yourself! Have an amazing day/night!!!

ellaxxluvsu

@karasu1fan Ofc!!! This is normal friend stuff :))) I'm also doing good! I wanna make sure you're doin okay after that rough patch!! Have fun with your hangouts! 
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karasu1fan

@ellaxxluvsu 
            
            hiiii ! I’ve been out w friends n around such good vibes, taking care of myself too :) appreciate you checking in, hope you’re doing good too <3
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karasu1fan

I also wanted to share something personal, because I feel like I owe you the truth about why I’ve been gone. It’s not just that I didn’t want to talk— I’m honestly the shyest person ever (but I always tried to push myself out my comfort zone just to have a conversation) and even though I want so badly to stay close to people, sometimes I just can’t bring myself to reach out. my mind convinces me everyone hates me, and it’s exhausting. 
          
          on top of that, these past few months have been some of the darkest I’ve ever lived through. there was a time when I wanted to delete not just Wattpad, but everything. I may not seem like someone who’d go through this, but I got caught up in things that nearly destroyed me — things I’m not proud of, and things I’m still trying to heal from. I’ve been getting help, and I’m working on it, but some days are still really hard.
          
          I’m sorry if this is too much to share, but I wanted you to know why I’ve been gone and why I’ve struggled to reach out. I’m trying my hardest, and I’m still here, even if I’m slower and quieter than before. thank you to anyone who’s stayed. I love you all more than words can say.
          
          chalant viky out-

ellaxxluvsu

@karasu1fan I wanted to add a few thing, but first, THEM FOR THE FOLLOW! I just wanted to make at least your day better, if not your situation by a lil bit. I've been through similar, where I felt like I was alone against the world. I'm not here to show sympathy. I'm here to support you. No matter what you do, say, or don't do. I will always appreciate you for being YOU. Not somebody that others want you to be. Just know that youre not alone is this world. Sending hugs and support from here! My discord is always open :D
            
            -Always here as your friend, Ella :) 
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karasu1fan

@suimaiii 
            
            hihii <3 thank you so much. even if we haven’t talked much, your words meant a lot. i really appreciate the love and support — it made me feel a little less alone. sending love backkk <3
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karasu1fan

hey everyone… it’s been a while. I know I haven’t written much or talked to many of you, and honestly, I’ve missed you all more than I can explain. I’m not here to say goodbye— I’m still here, even if I’ve been silent and distant. I just wanted to say I’m planning to come back, and a lot of things are going to change. 
          
          I’ll be active again, not just on this account but on my second one too, and while both will still be mine, they’ll be focused on completely different worlds. this account will stay for anime and “fiction” (mostly blue lock for now, but I’m dreaming of more fandoms), and my second account is going to be for stories inspired by k-dramas, movies, and all those “real-life” universes spinning in my head. these changes will take a while, but I’ll do my best to make things fast.
          
          I know I’m not a huge writer on here, and maybe not a lot of people are waiting for me, but for those who are, please know I’m trying my best. I’m not giving up on writing or on the people who’ve cared about my stories.
          
          my second account is : @karasu1fans 

ellaxxluvsu

I think I speak for all of your followers, but we miss you too! We appreciate all the writing you've done for us. 
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iliverae

LOOK AT THE TIKTOK I SENT YOU YOURE FAMOUSSSSSHHSHSH

iliverae

@karasu1fan we start at 100k then we go to 1000K
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iliverae

@karasu1fan YOU FAMOUS SHYT I FEEL IT IM FEELING IT
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karasu1fan

I SAW IT ❤️❤️❤️ NOT FAMOUS YET BUT M GROWING 
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