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Hey everyone, I don’t usually post here, but I’m gonna use it as I need mental support /vent/ I’m bored probably gonna be I need mental support most tho, but anyways ever since this fucking pandemic, I’ve been depressed and fighting back demons and I’ve been trying not to end it all, like I’m really trying but it’s hard, then there’s times when I’m sleeping then I visualize myself chasing my friends with a bloody knife while I’m bloody down a fiery hallway and every time I visualize that, I scream and my aunt asks if I’m okay and I always say yes but deep down I’m really not, there was this one time in my mind when I was chilling with my friends at a restaurant and then outta nowhere I took a knife from a waiter and slit my wrist or throat, I can’t recall, but either way I died in the “dream” u can call it, but then I woke up and there was a scar on my wrist and I was horrified and I just kept it hidden from my family and never said anything about the dream cause I’m they’d put me in a metal hospital but anyways depression aside and shit like that, I have a few people who help me through these thoughts and I want them to know I never ever want to lose them, the ones that have wattpad I’ll tag them and if I don’t tag u in this one, I’ll tag u in another one.
@virgil