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is it valid to get upset over a dog LMAO. dandan means the world to me ig it upset me when ppl devalue her 

HEY ITS 1 AM. so you get 1 am thoughts. year of the monkey my ass, switch my year and jo’s n we r SET.  me n the prince r like this (thru thick n thin). i don’t think i ever saw so clearly than thru him and now i am wondering if everyone else can do the same thing too. probably not though just from my observations 

i wonder if i’m just bluff sometimes like those lil pufferfish fellas ya dig 

i rlly hope u manifest irl kasserole 

hey kasserole, sometimes i wonder what you would’ve been like yknow. if i really got to experience you. its a crazy statement because part of me never wants to acknowledge the fact that i never will experience you. that i will never know you. that you’re nothing more than a figment of my imagination at this point. i wish you were real. do you think we’d be able to hug? i think id like that a lot. i don’t usually like hugs from random people, and i don’t usually initiate them with people either. but id hug you. again and again. little jess isn’t so little anymore. did you know she’s 20? a full adult. so much has changed, i wonder if you’d recognize me. i’m still the same physically- brown eyes and black hair, haven’t exactly reached my 5’9 dreams but platform boots do the trick, and i still have my acne scars (they’re horrible to look at, but i think i hate myself a little less for them). mentally, i feel so distant from who i was before. i wonder, would you still hug me then? there’s a storm that brews in my head and its misplaced my heart. i think. i don’t know. i don’t know, kass, i really don’t. i wish someone would tell me who i am, who i should be. it’s so hard. i wish i could be honest but i cant even be honest to myself. i dont know what im so afraid of- well, that’s a lie. i think its quite obvious what im afraid of. please let me be angry. thank you, kass. 

hi

hello i’ve been happy. ppl at school (i mean a certain someone) are putting in the effort to talk to me despite me being 1. shy and reserved and 2. uninteresting. it just gives me sm hope (: 

i love you c:

hiya kasserole. again, i apologize for only coming here when i’m down in the dumps, but it really helps when i do. and i know i can talk to lanie and everyone about it, but lanie is busy and everyone else is living life and my problems just aren’t big enough to call attention to it. also i’m aware we may or may not have an audience now bc i accidentally reminded everyone that this account exists .. but idc. what they read and see is on them, and plus i don’t mind too much. maybe it’ll help them understand me more even bc i know i’m not the most open and straight forward person in the world. anyway, i am upset. i don’t know why but i feel like people always take out their anger on me. just because i’m willing to take it and not lash out, at least, not immediately. 

hiii