katieebrookss

Okay, so I need to let this out somewhere. I'm so depressed right now I don't even know what to do!! I'm relapsing asf again and I'm so frustrated, and the worst part is I PHYSICALLY cannot do anything because my mind nor my body will ever listen.
          
          I'm literally sat on the floor at my vocal practice right now and fighting for my LIFE not to burst in tears, my voice had been getting worse for the past couple of months now and nothing like this has ever happened to me before! It's literally like I'm losing the ability to sing and I'm so scared because I've been singing since I was TWO. And I can barely reach high notes now, nor even do as much as sing CLEARLY. My voice is literally raspy. And I'm not even sick or anything, it's freaking august, it's so hot I don't know what else to take off. I can sense that she's getting a little disappointed with my voice too, because no matter what I do, it just won't come out right!
          
          Atop of that, school is starting soon and I'm about to be a freaking JUNIOR. Last year was hard enough to give me a migraine, I can't even imagine how worse this one will be, I'll probably combust. And I have to keep up my damn grades because I'm the "gOlDeN ChiLd" of the family, the one who studies all the time (my ass).
          
          I thought things would be better compared to last summer, but it's actually gone way more south now! my mental health is getting worse. ed, body dysmorphia, insomnia, anxiety. I literally stayed up last night because my mind wouldn't stop racing AND I HAD TAKEN A FREAKING SLEEPING PILL EARLIER!! I need help I'm seriously going to break down rn.

I have no idea what is going on with me, but lately I’ve been feeling soooo lost. I wanna do so many things but it’s like I have no energy in me, so I live in my head and disconnect from life entirely. and thinking about the fact that school is starting in just one month (and that I’ll have to graduate sooner or later) stressed me out so bad. I NEED HELP kajakajakajaka

oh what I would give to watch summer strike for the first time all over again. 

heyy idk why my reply to your thread on my page doesn't wanna post (first time I didnt realise so I posted it again and apparently it still didn't post) but i have kill bill published on another fanfic site 

Ur so cool I genuinely love you already <33

Omg Georgian stay and vip marry me

Hii can we be mootss?  i actually love ur vibe sm , your profile is so pretty

blackpink is starting to pmo SO BADLY and I could go on for hours about it. 
          
          first of all they aren’t even a group anymore and it’s so damn catastrophic to even call them one, their tours/concerts are trash, their album had been pushed back again (not that it surprises me) and so on and so on. 
          
          but what gets on my nerves the most is that they’re still one of the “wOrlD sHaKinG QuEeNs oF kPoP” even though they have released ONLY 33 songs throughout their entire career (of practically ten years mind you)
          
          meanwhile, dreamcatcher (one of the CRIMINALLY underrated k-groups) with over 150 songs barely receives any recognition that it SURELY deserves. 
          
          and also blackpink is a LITERAL copy of 2ne1, I don’t even think YG even tried to hide it tbh (the concept, the style, the discography and etc.)
          
           

I just finished watching jyp x caterers last episodes and… well DAYUM… can’t blame lily for wanting to marry chaeryeong

JYP x The Game Caterers was freaking AMAZING I seriously can’t wait for the last episode like alsjsma sksk