Hello, I just came back and to share my testimony for anyone who is willing to listen. I’m sure you can go back and look at my previous posts and see the condition I was in. But I found a purpose. Something that gave me life, and life abundantly. Something that gave me joy and peace. So that no matter how difficult the situation is I have peace and I have joy. I have a calling on my life. I have a purpose. Something I never thought I’d have. I wanted to die, I was ready to end it all, I was ready to run into oncoming traffic. I hated myself and I hated the world. I was cutting and starving. I remember being left there so broken and damaged I just wanted to rip my heart out and shred it to see if I could feel something. Drag a knife across my chest and rip my hair out I couldn’t contain the emptiness inside of me and nothing could fill it. I couldn’t go on like that anymore. I just couldn’t. I can’t describe that feeling but I’m sure some of you have felt it. I wish I could describe the pain but I can’t. I just can’t. Part of my brain has blocked out those memories. But I will never forget the day I met a man. Not just any man. No, this man changed my life. He changed everything. He filled me with life. He took away my depression and my self abuse and anxiety in under a month. He replaced it with so much joy and so much peace I can’t even begin to describe the love that I have felt. I had people staring at me wondering what had happened because I was quite literally a new person. I went from never smiling and looking dead to being unable to keep a smile off my face. I was born again. I met Jesus. More like, he met me, at my lowest. And I remember calling out to him and giving him my life and suddenly everything changed and I can’t shut up about him because you don’t understand that God LOVES YOU. And he loves me. And he saved me. And he can save you. I just want you to understand that nothing will take away your pain until you give it to Jesus.
