Thank you for the follow..and I want to let you know that yes I can be very depressing but I never show it. this is the only way for me to rant and vent. im always smiling with my freinds but they don't know what I do when I'm by myself and I don't got the courage to tell them....I cant tell them and there has to be a way to let out the steam right??? I know it seems like I'm dragging other people down but I don't even knew what else to do with me..