@kaykay55mc
Quick questions for those of you that read these little messages: What characters do you want to see more of on this site? And what stories are you most interested in seeing continued?
I'd like to update, but I'm not sure what.
Gonna post the beginning of Inhuman soon. This book will probably update rather slowly since I have yet to formulate and tie in ideas. Will contain death, violence, torment, a little humor, touching moments, betrayal, tears, happiness, and perhaps a bit of romance. My girl Kay's backstory along with three other hybrids. Recreation of that one thing I started forever ago called Captivity. If you wanna know more about the foxy girl or the hybrid tribes or the HRA or hybrids in general, give it a go.
@Paladin0950 Thanks! Kinda workin' on a couple things at once and a lot of crap's been going down along the way, so not sure when I'm going to be posting stuff but sure as hell will. (I've also been developing an AU story about demons and their realm.)
- My truest friends don't understand my great obsession in what isn't real in their eyes, and my family hardly knows. Perhaps I will gain more support from reality as I move forward. I don't believe many of you will read this, but I'm putting it here regardless. I don't like things taken the wrong way; I don't like quick-minded assumptions. What is my purpose in writing this? Maybe to express my inner thought. Maybe to give myself false hope in my own abilities. Maybe to be real with anyone who will listen. Maybe because no one will understand nor wish to listen to my rambling. Perhaps I should be putting all this misconstrued thought in a journal. I reminisce on a past that is lost to time and memory that I will always cherish. For without that, I wouldn't be where I am now. I miss the days when things went fast, but now I must be patient. As patient as those that have stuck around in the end, which I could never be more grateful for. I must stop holding back based on what others might think. I do that often, a reason I don't post as often as I wish to. I must take pride in my writing and strive for perfection. Even if some topics I describe are confusing, or surprising, or something to be laughed about. Time will only tell if I am privileged to stay true to everything I have said here, or if life will sweep me up again.
@kaykay55mc You are an inspiring person. What you have posted, has shown me that I must wait for life to come to me, and not to want to rush everything. I love what you have posted, and I hope you keep inspiring others.
As far as I walk away from this site, as many times I walk away, I always end up running back. I guess it was wrong of me to do so last year. Wattpad seems almost empty now. There are people who have stuck around, but few in numbers. The writers I used to look up to have left. Many of the people who used to encourage and praise me are gone. Needless to say, I am not ungrateful for what I receive now. I simply miss the years before when I was enthralled and excited when I used Wattpad because of the community itself, the feeling of belonging in a sort of clique per say. Don't get me wrong, I know how it feels to lose interest in something, to feel like you're forcing yourself to do something that now makes you feel empty. I respect moving on. I thought I had for a long time. But every time I log back in, I am enveloped in the feeling that something is missing. Perhaps I do miss the attention I received when I first started, but I by no means wish to sound arrogant or needy. I am not the kind of person that needs unconditional or constant praise to be happy. But yet, I miss the ones that gave me courage to go on, in writing and even reality, the inspiration to write, the feeling of being appreciated and looked up to as I looked up to them. I will not forget the beginning, but if I wish to continue and possibly relive such a time, I must stay on top of things. It is a difficult commitment I now make to this site, with schoolwork piled high and emotions running rampant (though I am much happier than last year). I can't up and leave without finishing what I've started, or people will lose faith in me. Which many already had. Writing is my passion. If I let go of it, the beauty and wonder will be lost to me forever. I desire for others to see the beauty of the worlds I create, just as I am amazed by that of others. I will certainly stop posting on this site in the future, but I will never stop writing. My characters have come to mean a great deal to me more than ever -
Thank you for your input and consideration, it does mean a lot to me. I have, in fact, been thinking a lot about religion for a while now. I have indirectly expressed fears and questions of what comes after death rather recently through one of my most cherished characters, Seto. While I personally don't share these exact thoughts as him (I create each character very different yet with similarities to myself, including thoughts. Kay is an exception since I based her almost completely off of myself.), I do question the concepts of life and death and faith. I consider myself Christian. My dear Seto is, for now, unreligious, but this does not mean the same goes for me. I started going to church with my grandparents a few months back, and with each time it made more and more sense. Before such, I did feel as though I was being forced into a religion I knew little about, I felt no presence of such a God in my life. I have come to see it more clearly, though I do not believe He possesses my full undivided faith. Hear me out, this is not intentional. I wish to put my faith in Him, but the logical, stubborn, inquiring part of my mind likes to interefere and question. It is only natural that I question things because that's what I've done all my life. But I believe the faith I do possess is growing. I do want to have this underlying belief of hope and light. Perhaps I already have been saved, for I did feel a powerful presence in the church weeks ago, but I must strengthen my morales and values in this case if I want to surrender my head and heart. My head is stubborn but my heart is easily swayed. Sometimes I wonder if some of my writing is sin that displeases God, since I do occasionally write about death, excessive violence, and homosexuality among some of my dearest characters. But whether it is or not, I will have to find out as I continue to learn. Thank you again for taking interest and reminding me of what I must do. I did not intend this reply to be so long.
Hey, I have felt the same way before, I honestly felt like dropping everything and quitting. But then I read some inspiring stories, and to name a few, “Unnerved”, His Little Doll. And that’s just two. Also, I felt empty and just “meh” all the time, now don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to shove “religion” down your throat or anything, but I will tell you that when I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart, I no longer had that empty feeling, I felt like I could take on the world and NO ONE could stop me! I’ll be praying for you, friend.
I've updated Last One Standing and hope to continue. If you're into mysteries or want to read more about my lovely characters, feel free to give it a try.
Taking a short break from Shrunken to recalibrate. Meanwhile, I'd love to hear from you fabulous people. What other existing book should I update? And if you have any ideas or suggestions for stories or themes I should write, please feel free to comment them! I want to find new inspiration and things to write about.
**I might be writing some more backstories to certain characters soon, like for Tyra (a revised one), Kay, Matthew, Alex, Justin, maybe Angel and Starr (who were given to me by their owners who quit wattpad), etc. etc. Tell me if you'd like to see a specific character's backstory!
Chapter 41 calls itself a draft even though I published it twice and it's been commented on?? Wot?
The actual Chapter 39 of Shrunken is up now. Sorry for the confusion!
Sorry for the confusion. The actual Chapter 39 of Shrunken is up now.
It's the new year and I got to updating. I think I'm back in the game. Yay books