I
You can see it in my eyes
A child's spark lights up the night
Constant search for approval, suffocated by refusal
Devouring my skull but never feeling full
Oh, dear I don't wanna be a burden
But could you please be a little more concerned with
The overactive mind of a believer
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Oh, dear if only you could feel it
The crippling fear of being deserted
You can't touch the heat of this fever
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
I start this off a little confused
Writers block doesn't exist
It's not a word I'm supposed to use
Because it's all in my mind
A parasite I'm supposed to find
But sometimes
Well most times
It's so hard to define
So I pour a couple drinks
Getting drunk on gasoline
Fire pulses in my veins
I'm sick of waiting for the day
That courage overtakes my brain
For someone to say it's okay
I've lived my whole life afraid
It's time for me to be brave
To embrace a forest
That's so dark and unknown
Because no great adventurer has a paved path to roam
They pave as they go
Disappointed gazes leaving poisoned bread crumb traces
I'm not taking the bait
Let them rot in their place
I deserve to be alright
I deserve to sleep at night
I'm my closest friend, I remind myself again
Better treat her well, 'cause she's with me till the end
Oh, dear I don't wanna be a burden
But could you please be a little more concerned with
The overactive mind of a believer
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Oh, dear if only you could feel it
The crippling fear of being deserted
You can't touch the heat of this fever
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
toxic thoughts