kiyomi

im a slave to my lover

Have you ever loved a rose, 
          and watched her slowly bloom; 
          and as her petals would unfold, 
          you grew drunk on her perfume.
          Have you ever seen her dance, 
          her leaves all wet with dew;
          and quivered with a new romance-
          the wind, he loved her too.
          Have you ever longed for her, 
          on nights that go on and on; 
          for now, her face is all a blur,
          like a memory kept too long.
          Have you ever loved a rose,
          and bled against her thorns; 
          and swear each night to let her go,
          then love her more by dawn.

the Weight of Midnight
          The clock strikes twelve,
          fireworks scatter like spilled light,
          and voices rise in countdowns,
          but here, the quiet stretches,
          a weight I can’t shake.
          This isn’t the start I imagined,
          the empty space beside me
          feels sharper tonight.
          You’re not here,
          but you’re everywhere.
          In the pause between breaths,
          in the way I hold my arms to keep warm,
          I feel your absence,
          a presence all its own.
          How do I explain this?
          That I love someone
          the world doesn’t see the way I do.
          They don’t understand the waiting,
          the strength it takes to live
          on letters and seconds stolen
          from a clock that isn’t mine.
          At midnight, I don’t make a wish.
          I make a promise,
          to keep this love alive,
          to carry it through another year.
          Because even though you’re not beside me,
          you’re a part of me,
          and that’s enough
          to keep me standing.
          We don’t need fireworks.
          We don’t need cheers.
          We have this,
          a love they’ll never understand,
          a tether stronger than distance.
          So, as the world celebrates,
          I sit with the silence,
          knowing it won’t always be this way.
          One day, the clock will strike,
          and you’ll be here
          And until then, I’ll hold you
          in the only place that time cannot touch 
          my heart.

It has been one of the greatest and 
          most difficult years of my life. 
          I learned everything is temporary. 
          Moments. Feelings. People. Flowers. 
          I learned love is about giving. Everything. And letting it hurt. 
          I learned vulnerability is always the right choice because it is easy to be cold in a world that makes it so very difficult to remain soft.
          I learned all things come in twos. 
          Life and death. Pain and joy. Salt and sugar. It is the balance of the universe. 
          It has been the year of hurting so bad but living so good. 
          Making friends out of strangers. 
          Making strangers out of friends. 
          We must learn to focus our warm energy. Always. Soak our limbs in it and become better lovers to the world. 
          For if we can't learn to be kinder to each other how will we ever learn to be kinder to the most desperate parts of ourselves.

Thank you so much for follow me!
          
          I've returned the favor and followed you back because you seem like an absolutely amazing person 
          
          I hope that we can be friends 
          
          Have a absolutely wonderful day!

You left me with a heartáche that no one can heal, but your memories are my treasures that no one can stéal. I miss you more that you could ever know."

I don't really feel like talking
          I lost someone close to me
          There are just some things
          Your eyes cannot un see
          Excuse me if I am quiet
          I don't have much to say
          I haven't been the same
          Not since that painful day
          The world is too loud now
          My heart cannot cope
          It's broken, I'm afraid
          And there is no antidote
          So for now,
          Home is where I'll stay 
          Attending to my heart
          Safe and tucked away

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