ketoprakk

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TW: Su*c*dal thought
          	
          	I don't know where to write this tbh, I planned to have my own blog but never rlly hv motivation to start. So, I just write here.
          	
          	I'm in senior year of HS, but idk what to do. It's nice seeing my friends are all having goals and such, but I can't think anything but kms.
          	
          	I've been thinking abt it since Junior high after my sister left me behind to focus on her own family. My sister is like my mom for me, bc my mom don't do sh*t. 
          	
          	My mom is the worst, but I can't blame her. Back then she was diagnosed with depression and she refused to go to the therapy bc save her money for her children.
          	
          	Growing up with emotionally unstable mom and apathic dad, I became a kid with severe social anxiety and inferiority (which make me doesn't hv any close friend) make me depend to my sister a lot, and she's gone.
          	
          	I spend a lot of time doing thing I like which is drawing. I start joining young artist community groups and I realized that I'm suck at draw. The spark in art slowly fade away.
          	
          	In HS I start to do a lot of new hobby as a replacement, that's why I'm in this app. I kinda enjoy to writing my imagination and my opinion. My first story is Flawed (I already delete it). But, for year I'm develop that story and I changed the title to Medioker (yes, it's available in this acc).
          	
          	No matter how much time I spend working on it and promoting that story, that story remains unrecognizable.
          	
          	I also send many essay to several media and no one answer my Email.
          	
          	Maybe I'm suck at writing also.
          	
          	I can't cope with myself anymore. I'm suck at everything. Drawing, writing, cooking, philosophy, history, sociology. Nothing works out. Everyone is better than me.
          	
          	I wish I hv motivation to continue my stories...
          	
          	Don't worry, it's not su*c*dal note or somethin', I just write this to warn you guys how suck and lack of motivation I am.

ketoprakk

this message may be offensive 
TW: Su*c*dal thought
          
          I don't know where to write this tbh, I planned to have my own blog but never rlly hv motivation to start. So, I just write here.
          
          I'm in senior year of HS, but idk what to do. It's nice seeing my friends are all having goals and such, but I can't think anything but kms.
          
          I've been thinking abt it since Junior high after my sister left me behind to focus on her own family. My sister is like my mom for me, bc my mom don't do sh*t. 
          
          My mom is the worst, but I can't blame her. Back then she was diagnosed with depression and she refused to go to the therapy bc save her money for her children.
          
          Growing up with emotionally unstable mom and apathic dad, I became a kid with severe social anxiety and inferiority (which make me doesn't hv any close friend) make me depend to my sister a lot, and she's gone.
          
          I spend a lot of time doing thing I like which is drawing. I start joining young artist community groups and I realized that I'm suck at draw. The spark in art slowly fade away.
          
          In HS I start to do a lot of new hobby as a replacement, that's why I'm in this app. I kinda enjoy to writing my imagination and my opinion. My first story is Flawed (I already delete it). But, for year I'm develop that story and I changed the title to Medioker (yes, it's available in this acc).
          
          No matter how much time I spend working on it and promoting that story, that story remains unrecognizable.
          
          I also send many essay to several media and no one answer my Email.
          
          Maybe I'm suck at writing also.
          
          I can't cope with myself anymore. I'm suck at everything. Drawing, writing, cooking, philosophy, history, sociology. Nothing works out. Everyone is better than me.
          
          I wish I hv motivation to continue my stories...
          
          Don't worry, it's not su*c*dal note or somethin', I just write this to warn you guys how suck and lack of motivation I am.

definasyafa

Hai kak 
          Izin promosi ya, kalau nggk suka boleh di hapus kok
          Terima Kasih 
          
          Hanya tentang Haikal Mahendra cowok tengil petakilan yang mampu menutupi luka dengan tawa nya. Dan tentang takdir cinta nya bersama Grabiella Queenie.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/351118131?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=definasyafa&wp_originator=xUgVhnEfQ%2Bf2U9CnJYOB31k%2BupoCb6JPau1r8IsE%2B%2BmzgyxplD5SvxpNhyw%2BVFh7YWhsqMbDY85b3t3XN4dRG7jsXXhOsYtMf4T6S%2FkKfp8%2BGT2WaK7Jj%2BN1viNRU%2Bx%2B

ketoprakk

@ definasyafa  gapapa kok, semangat yaaa
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