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في اماكن كان نفسي اكون فيها من البرايمر بتاعها

His eyes are like olive branches… why did my heart react this way?
            Ah, they are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. I feel like I could do the impossible just for them.
            I hate seeing you unhappy. Sometimes I wish I could take your sadness and add it to mine  as long as you are happy, that’s all that matters.
            I love you from the depths of my heart. It’s enough that seeing you makes me happier.
            I always wonder why we aren’t neighbors, so I could see you every day and simply make sure you’re okay.
            You know… I always say that loving you isn’t good for me.
            But I truly can’t stop. I know how this will end I know where these feelings will lead, and it may be my undoing  yet I simply don’t know how to stop loving you

I truly felt it  the loneliness  when I needed him beside me. I didn’t want anything more than his presence.
            Just seeing him made everything better; life felt so much gentler. He was the only person in my life. He was everything.
            What scares me the most is that I truly resemble him in so many ways… but will my present become like his life is now?
            I hope so, even though I know it’s almost impossible but still, why not?
            I trust in God… but does God still love me?
            So many things used to happen  signs and moments that made me feel that God loved me and felt my heart.
            Does it still happen?
            Is God still sending me signs, and I’m simply too blind to see them?
            That would truly hurt.
            I miss who I used to be when there was no pain in my life… only peace.

Thinking about it is nothing but an emotional drain.
            I know exactly what I should do. I understand the roots of the matter, and I approach it logically.
            I’ve become a rational person after once being purely emotional.
            There’s still a part of me that’s emotional — I can’t get rid of it.
            I know this isn’t good. I know why they do this. And I know that all I need to do is let go or stop focusing on them, because damn it, I understand the core of it all.
            I truly hate it with all my heart.
            You left me. You traveled away after everything  you left me and went away

واكلم مين لما انتي مترديش مين هيقولي عايزك متخفش.

وحشتيني اوي معرفش ازاي انا موحشتكيش كل دَ.!

يعني مبقاش ليها اي ستين لازمة

@synovya_shlyuhi 
            زي السكر يا حبيبه 
            اخخ متفكرنيش بس

كان هنا ازاي يا مريم؟.!

I've been sleeping a thousand years, it seems

Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me

All of this time, I can't believe I couldn't see

the winner takes it all

Make your flowers deep inside of me

Take away my blood and bones

اخخ

قطعت مع كتير و مش فارقلي وانا زمان خلاص بس بجد نفسي ارجع في النقطة دِ بس زي زمان 

هل دَ جحود.!