kia_stays
I never really understood why I had a large number of close friends like everyone else did. And why the friends i had always hurt me and never tried understanding me. But Yes I have close friends. A few. They were enough. And they always will be. But why is life so unfair to my friends. I can't take it when my friends are suffering. I know I am supposed to be with them at their lowest, but their lowest scares the hell out of me. They look drained of life and happiness. It's not like i haven't seen them like that before but it hurts. It hurts like it was me who is going through a hard time. And my parents have the audacity to say, "It's their problem so ignore it" No i can't do that. They were the ones that sat with me when I was crying. They were the ones that gave me reasons to live. They made me realise that I am a good friend and that it's not my fault that everyone is being fake to me.
kia_stays
@kia_stays Today my bestfriend went through something that happened to me a few years ago. I tried my best to comfort him. All I got was him saying what happened and questioning what he did to deserve that. His voice was filled with despair and long held hope that was broken into pieces. I felt like I was living the worst days of my life all over again. All I was able to tell him was that it's going to be ok. Well deep down I know it's not. It took me two years and the right person to feel better. I really hope he gets his lover back because he didn't just lose her. He lost his spark, will to live and his love for art. These were the things that made him who he is. And yet another thing i noticed is, he asked me if I am ok even when he was the one going through the worst heartbreak. Friends like these are rare please hold on to them and never let go. All they need is an assurance that you would stay. I know he will never get to see this. But i am so proud of him. He is so strong. He is so much more than what he thinks he is. He is so talented and he deserves better. By better I don't mean another girl because I know love doesn't work like that. You can find love in the ugliest and painful stories too, that doesn't make it fake. It's just bitter but real. It's true love but tragic. I really hope he gets his girl back. (I am sorry people i just wanted to vent, it's killing me)
