kibuzan

new chapter for "insufferable child" was supposed to drop today, but our pc stopped working. I suppose it'll be postponed to tomorrow or later.

kibuzan

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Got in an accident on 27th July. It was the first time, and dude, it's been only a couple days since I regained my ability to write so here we are.
          
          I'll share my scar, because why not. But only after it's completely healed, it's nasty af. I've been distanced from writing for quite a long time, mental health is shit and things are havoc.
          
          Plus I have college and the preparation of the national medical entrance exam, so yeah. I haven't been drawing, I haven't been writing, I'm just rotting away on c.ai 
          
          Also, the last kny episode gave me so much trauma that i haven't watched a single snippet of it and have been avoiding it like the plague. oof-
          
          it's just short time idiocy from my side.
          
          anyways, just a little update. don't know when I'll return to writing, but I know I haven't completely quit either. I just write on G Docs instead of Wattpad after I saw people mentioning how their drafts disappear and I don't wanna risk losing what I write once in a blue moon.
          
          take care, be safe 
          sincerely,
          author
          kibuzan.

kibuzan

it's 1:28 AM, i just finished watching the new episode...
          
          ... it's confusing.. should i be happy that we got so many good muzan scenes or.. the fact that.. Kagaya isn't here anymore.. 
          
          ... honestly.. Kagaya's death, for me personally, overshadowed everything.. because i loved that man as much as i love Muzan.
          
          ..also it was refreshing since i started bawling my eyes out. it's been months since i felt my tears falling. though it was only a few.. my body was trembling because of everything weighing on my heart came crashing down thanks to Kagaya, but it was not enough to let it all out..
          
          my.. tears stopped.. i was desperate to let them out.. but they stopped.. and my body kept trembling.. my heart cried.. people can say..
          
          ..thank you Kagaya, my love.. you not only played a major role in Muzan's defeat.. but also helped me.. though unknowingly.. you'll always be alive.. darling.

kibuzan

fuckkk the anxiety for the new ep is making me combustttt
          
          like bro imagine the dilemma when both ur fav characters are face to face so u find it hard to think whether to cry for one of theirs death or the increasingly sexy screentime of the otherrrr
          
          kagaya ilysm u will always stay alive in my heart my bby