kihyunsleftfoot

If I told yall I'm still alive, would you believe it skekwkwk

devil_kizuna

@kihyunsleftfoot hello !!!
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ERRAROSEE

HOLA
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_fatalstars

get well soon pls i miss you :0

_fatalstars

@_fatalstars i know that things are tough now but like you wrote bad things can change i only got here after a year since your last appearance what you're going through is something completely valid i understand what you're doing and why you're doing it i know things take time, people take time. so i'll wait. i hope you'll get better soon <3
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Joselyn2cute

I cant relate to you but I want you to know that we’re here for you. I hope that you get better because believe it or not you’re important. There’s someone out there who loves you and cares for you. I don’t know you personally but I care about you and I really hope you get better because I don’t want you to go through any pain.

Nirvy72301

I can’t begin to imagine what you must be going through or how you must be feeling but i just want you to know that we’re not just your readers. We’re your friends and we care about you and your health. I know things are hard right now but they’ll get better after time, you just have to try and get out of this dark time. I know it won’t be quick but i truly believe that one day you’ll be in a better place, a happier place.

kihyunsleftfoot

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Ok. No more avoiding the truth.
          
          My life is a mess. An absolute mess. I'm falling apart. I'm destroying myself. The truth is that I haven't even logged into this acc in a month because I can't even think of updating. I'm self-destructive, I'm a hazard, I'm not even sure how the fuck I'm still alive. My heart is beating for some unknown reason. I'm struggling. I don't want to be here or anywhere anymore. I'm tired guys. 
          
          I'm so fucking tired.
          
          I'm so self conscious that I'm destroying myself. I limit my calorie intake, I sleep 15 hours a day, I cry all the time, I push everyone I know away. My BMI is under 17 right now. I've absolutely destroyed myself, and I can't avoid that fact. I'm a mess, I don't want attention or pity or anything because I don't deserve it. I'm not worth it. I'm not this decent person everyone thinks I am. I'm a girl who wakes up in the middle of the night from hunger pains and looks up images of unhealthily skinny girls to remind herself what she is working towards. That's me. I'm 17 years old, and I'm destroying myself. Who knows how much longer I'll be here.
          
          I just wanted to explain why I'm gone. If you want to keep in contact, my side twt acc i made earlier is @ sunshineandgay
          
          you can dm me if you want, idk why you would tho.
          
          im logging off for now, maybe i'll return if i ever get help
          
          i really hope the best for each and everyone of you. please, if you're struggling, get help.

igotabadhabit

@kihyunsleftfoot Hey sweetie, I know that sometimes it gets hard to go on when you're tired of everything, I feel the same. However, that should not keep you from moving on and forgetting the negative things that happen. Its difficult but not impossible. You should not starve yourself for any reason at all. You totally are worth something precious if you are still alive. Whatever happens, never forget to move on because when you fall, you surely get back up even if it's a little bit difficult. If you fall, just smile despite the pain, if you fail, just shrug it off despite the disappointment and exhaustion, if you can't, tell yourself you can because that's how life is. It is hard but it will eventually get better, not now surely but later because later is better than never. Just never give up and always continue going forward, it shows just how strong you are. Hope you will get better eventually
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LittleLonelyKitten

@ kihyunsleftfoot  i hope that you get better. I don't know you in person but you deserve so much better and i really wish that you'll be healthy again
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kihyunsleftfoot

Djekdkss so many people have been asking if I'm still existing and writing. I'm gonna reread EVERY chapter of EVERY thing I haven't finished yet, make notes, and go from there. I hope you realize that I can't update everything at once and it'll be a pain to read everything, but I gotta remember where I was going. Thanks