Laughing because the whole world claims that they hate you. Knowing that half of them are liars trying to fit into a painful society. Humanity. What have you become? Humanity is the monster we're hiding from. 

That's the struggle I face everyday. Be afraid, or be alone.



Where has my courage gone?



I want you to wonder. 

Who I am. 

What I've done. 

What I've been through. 

Why I'm here.



I'm a dead man walking.

But I'm alive. 

I've been hurt all over. 

I'm alive. 

I've been broken to unrecognizability. 

To the point of insanity. 

I've been there and back. 

And then for a moment I was happy again. 

And then I got lost and ended up even more lost than I ever was. So lost.



No one dared to help me.



But that's okay. Because I'm Alive.



I'm the girl I the corner, watching the party you invited me to out of the kindness of your heart, and not the interest of your mind. 

Screaming inside. Wanting to dance. Wanting to play. 

But I'm so scared. 

I'm the girl who can go a day without even whispering a single word, just thinking. 

With so much to say, but no idea how to say them at all. 

I'm the girl who has finally found her way, I'm the girl who came back from the fall, holds her head up and always stands tall. The one who stands up from every trecherous  falls. And doesn't pick up when death pleads for me to pick up the call. 



So I want you to wonder. I want you to know. 

Only You. 

Because,secrets have cost. And so do the answers, too.