kimberly808

I don't need anyone.... I have myself and I'm fine .... Everyone leaves so there is no point in me even trying.... ✌️

I think it's time to start over . I need to go somewhere new . I need to make new friends and get new crushes and try new things . I don't belong here . I don't want to be here . I'm sad here . I'm really sad . I don't know if it's because all the memories or the fact that I rally haut don't like it here. I need to leave before something bad happens. I feel like a complete failure. I don't get good grades . I'm really blonde . And I ruin everything. Maybe I'm just one of those people who are never happy. No matter how hard I the I chat be happy. Everyone is giving up on me . I don't blame them. My teachers don't care anymore. My dad doesn't. I don't think Jasmine does either. She is moving to Oregon again. She is leaving me .... Again .... I really want to leave too ... I don't want to be stuck here all alone . I have like no one . I ruin everything . I couldn't even make my boyfriend happy ... He had to cheat on me ... I'm really starting to give up on myself .... Everything I was and e everything I'm becoming . This place is changing me . I don't tho like want this . I don't want to be here anymore . Without Jasmine I don't know what i am going to do . I guess it's back to being  depressed all the time. Back to crying all night because your best friend leaves  you again. I don't know why I even try to be happy , it doesn't work . I can't be happy . I need to start over . In a new place . With new people. New Views . New happiness. It's time to start a new chapter . I'm done of this place . I need to leave 

I always had a weird feeling that this would happen. You would create this image of yourself in my mind and get me attached to you . I got attached. Life happened ..... I don't think I can say I hate you .... I don't hate you . I hate the fact that you are not the same person to me anymore . I don't need you to tell me all this stuff about suicide .... I know plenty ..... I don't want to talk to you anymore . You were the person that made all my old habits come back . I don't think this will ever work .  I have tried . Friends are supposed to be there for each other ... You were there .... But .... It was difficult for me to trust you .... I'm mad at myself for trusting you .... You hurt me .... I don't need you in my life anymore .... I'm sorry .... I'm sorry I honestly trusted you ... I'm sorry I thought you were different then all the kids at school ... Your no different.... 

Trying to live a teenage life can be difficult at times . There are plenty of times I  remember wanting to die. It's a fun life to live but a different kind of fun. I guess I'm just trying to live life . I'm an average teenager with the normal issues . My parents got divorced a year ago and life has been filled with problems since then . My parents divorced left me really sad and life just continue to worsen.