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@lonelyflowerofhaven exactly.... I'm most worried about Taehyung... If we are this devastated I can't imagine his situation he loved Yeontan like a son...

@kimjeon1812 I will missed him so much ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽

@kimjeon1812 I don't how to react....it was yesterday when we saw our baby pic and videos with tae and now... I

@yoonminffs_70 am good I'll be done with my exams till 15 December....
            
            I also can't wait to write, read stories and comment and reply each other...

@kimjeon1812 I'm missing you so much (⁠っ⁠˘̩⁠╭⁠╮⁠˘̩⁠)⁠っ
            Fainlly can't wait to read ur story and chitchat silly thing's in comment box..
            
            How are you ??
            Did you complete ur exams??
            Love you too...♥️

@Loveboiah your reply literally made me tear up.... I can't explain how much am missing you and others...

@kimjeon1812 it's ok♥️ be back soon healthy and safe also u don't forget to eat and don't over work yourself 
            WE LOVE YOU TOO ❣️❤️

@lonelyflowerofhaven yeah am alright...just so much busy with exams...How are you doing dear ? ❣️

@lonelyflowerofhaven @Loveboiah Happy Diwali (⁠◔⁠‿⁠◔⁠)...
            Thank you for consoling me... I love you both...
            It's just... I realised am loosing myself...it feels numb inside...out of nowhere I find my eyes pouring tears... it's like am bleeding emotionally... 
            You know there are two things which I used to wait eagerly for...every year...my birthday and Diwali...
            But now my birthday feels like normal day... actually I forced it to be just a normal day because I was so tired of considering it especial and cry on my every birthday. Since I stopped celebrating my birthday goes peacefully like normal ones....
            Second Diwaali.... it's something I used to crave for more than anything even birthdays...but this Diwaali... I cleaned whole house , decorated it with my own hands, and do all the necessary shopping...but it felt useless because I was feeling nothing like nothing it's just numb....
            I just cannot figure out wether am broken or can't be broken anymore. It feels so numb inside, all those fireworks I used to love... now just feels like some random lights...my doe eyes shine not because of shiny wonders in the sky but sorrow which keeps hammering my head .... The sweets I craved for are tasteless now... I know am falling in dark abyss... and can't seem to find a way back... I will NOT give up ...I WILL fight back but it's not easy the process seems so heartwrenching...am loving and pampering myself but that doesn't mean I can stop my inner child from dying....
            
            But as you (Loveboiah) said belive in Krishna...am doing it ....he will guide me but I know I have to fight for myself....as Arjun has too.....
            
            
            Am TRYING I swear am trying...but it's just HURTS ....
            
            I want to die but I can't... I can't leave my mother alone...she is only living for me and suffering for me so I won't let it go in vain... until I escaped myself from this suffering and set my mother free from those pains too....
            
            Thank you for consoling me ... I really DO I REALLY REALLY DO LOVE YOU GUYS....
            
            ❣️❤️

@kimjeon1812 i got to know , about your situations , you may be have backlogs to cover , carreer tention . I too feel like how you described , on my every birthday , I used to listen myself as a burden ... And then diwali .. tsk , leave it . I got you .... I know how you really feel .. but we can solve it together... Share things when it's get complicated... Share with me ... Please 

@Loveboiah thank you...am genuinely grateful... I will share it ... I promise... (I really really wish I could hug you and cry it all out)

@kimjeon1812 yayyy!! Top Yoongi for lifeeee(⁠＾⁠∇⁠＾⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♪

@MSniduu7 heheh༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

@Nvm_779 The reply goes well with the username ToT