a mirrorball

Im already sad and someone are just boosting it up like why?
          
          Pls just stop...
          
          Like i just want to smile and laugh purely and naturally for a day or even just an hour

Fuck sadness for taking over me since like last week...
          
          I just wanna be purely happy for like one day...

Can someone please give me a reason on why i should not feel lonely or so sad everyday? :(

 #stanbillieeilish

It really hurts to be the person who always adjust in these days now 
          
          And if i know it hurts, why i still do it?
          
          Cause i dont want to cause a fight
          
          Or worse...
          
          Lose that person

Look ive been watching a lot of video about the whole Jennie and Kai dating thing and i kinda support them though and i think theyre cute together
          
          But whats creeping me out is the dispatch like damn whats with them exposing idols, stalking and doing everything awful for money
          
          Like im still bitter but im more mad at dispatch lmao

Call me overdramatic but jennie and kai are stuck in my head all day, doing things what couple supposed to do 
          
          Well but i need to say when i played youngblood by 5sos in my earphones it feels like this is the song to make me forget about them or like take out all of my bitterness on them in this song
          
          And watching some redvelvet, izone, twice related helps a bit
          
          So thank you 5sos for your great song lmao
          
          So yeah, thank you for reading about me still not moving on about them

Now im stuck between on what should i buy first candy bong or black pink's lightstick
          
          I know im not going in any of their concert
          
          But hey still, i would like to bop my ass in the house with their songs blasting in my earphones and me waving some lightstick around 
          
          Lmao

So yep theyre official since October 2018 from what i think because i researched
          
          So im wishing jennie amd kai, a happy and healthy relationship
          
          As a jennie stan,
          
          I will be happy for jennie, who will always be my bias no matterwhat the situation is
          
          Yes, im bitter but being sad and miserable will not just help me from getting better and happy
          
          So *insert finger heart* this is for #jenkai
          
          *insert sad smile*

And i just laughed when i saw a meme about jennie that she's not solo anymore lmao