I'm scared that you'll be the side character of my story and I'm scared that I won't even exist in your story I wish I just wish that you could atleast once know me know my name I want to tell you so much so much that I myself don't know from where to start I might never take your name infront of people when they'll ask me who is your type, who is your crush I might end up saying I don't have any crush because you're not just my crush but my deepest desire, love seems like a cheesy word to me but and it's a small word infront of how I feel for you, it is actually hard to see you with someone else and it would be miserable for me when you'll get married to someone who is not me it would be sad it would hurt but I'll try my best to move on I'm trying even now but I'm just not able to I keep on saying I hate you I don't love you you're the past but you're not you're not just the past but the guy I've desired the guy I've loved for years you're the person I'd want to be with you're the future that I've always wanted keeping you just in past hurts but can't help I just can't help I use to think that I might hand you over my diary where I've written so much about you, but I won't there are untold reasons to it, I'm bound with my own memories that I've created in my mind. That my feeling might end up hurting you or making you uncomfortable from my existence so I won't give you my diary I won't tell you about how much I've loved you I won't tell you about my spam account on Instagram where I've called you my love millions of time years of planning goes in nothing when you have lack of confidence and when you know you're one sided...
