Madhu :)

hey! it’s been awhile since we’ve talked, hows everything going? i hope you’re doing well!

its 2 am and i just thought of an idea.
          
          pov: you and your best friend have to choose a truth or lie pill.( truth pill will convert every lie into a truth and every truth will stah the same,
          while the lie pill will convert every truth into a lie and every lie will stay the same.) u are insecure and always feel bad about urself but ur friend is the opposite and is very confident about herself. u choose the lie pill as u want everyone to think u are pretty while ur friend chooses the truth one.but what u dont realise is u ended up choosing the opposite ones and u become more and more confident while ut friend looses all of hers. you try comforting jer but u end up getting way too popular to be able to stay with her and help her.what you dont know is that the pills are related. whenever u succeed she looses . when u loose she wins. 
          theres only so much she can take until she looses everything .
          
          
          okay wtf . i should sleep lmao

@-kookonuthead thankyou so much dor checking in♡.im doing okay . i just want high school to end .... im pushing through because of bts ...literally everyday telling myself that i should calm down and wait for all of this to stop

@-kookonuthead hiiiiii :) I'm okay ig... Mocks are messing with me... I just want to graduate 

I low-key wanna bite off my nails but they are pretty and people gonna bite my head off if they don't see it 

Hey..... It's my birthday today..... I'm turning 17.....but I don't feel it.... I don't feel anything.... Im just crying right now.... I feel so so bad and I don't know why..... I'm also feeling anxious..... A little shaky..... Tired physically and mentally.... I don't know why and it's annoying me too...... The cuts on my hand don't help.... I don't know why I'm like this.... I just feel so sad..... And that's killing me..... 

@aymeria I actually study in an Indian curriculum and it sucks :( it's my boards this year 

@aymeria thankyou :( I will bandage it and I took a little break because of how stressed I am... Rn I'm watching bts summer package. I keep trying not to worry but I can't help it :/

@aymeria I'm so dumb.... I was worrying about exams to such an extent that I made myself puke and even worse I also cut myself. It wouldn't stop bleeding so I panicked and almost passed out.... Now I'm sitting with a open wound cus my parents arent home and idk what to do... 

@aymeria I'm okay could be better how are you???