i was an emotional brat today because i don’t know how to take compliments, so as my cast members gave me compliments on how well i did today during intermission and at the end, i just kept fanning my eyes to prevent from smudging my make up. i have anxiety and sociophobia, so i live in slight regret for dropping my (very small) role back in sophomore year. this year i was so exhausted, even though my role wasn’t hUGe, but i just kept losing confidence in myself. even during the last rehearsal back on wednesday, i forgot two of my lines in my monologue, which really put a damper on my mood. the big kicker was that i had to slow down, which was the same advise i received each time i acted, so i was more nervous forgetting my lines over the performance itself. tonight, i asked my cast members what specifically i needed to improve on and took them to heart because i wanted to do well for them and myself. legit, i just wanted the show to be over with earlier this week, but now i don’t want it to end because i’m gonna miss everyone once i graduate ): i have two more shows— my cast is doing the closing, so we’re gonna be the ones to wrap everything up (:
here’s the message i’m trying to get across: there will always be someone excited for and proud of you, so don’t worry too much. just keep on improving and enjoy yourself because life keeps on moving (:
have a good morning/night y’all