i’m finally logging back into this account with a heavy conscience. knowing that i’ve abandoned this account and my stories after repeated promises of not is something i’m far from proud of. i feel ashamed of that, and extremely apologetic.
i don’t come bearing good news. i’ve completely lost interest in the twins at this point, and am in no way motivated to write about them anymore. i still follow them passively and wish them well, i have good feelings towards them, but i am no longer actively supporting them or invested in their lives or activities. because of this, i won’t be continuing any of my stories. not even León.
it really hurts me to say that but is a relief as well. León is my pride and joy, i am so proud of what i’ve done with it and how much i’ve put into it. i really see it as proof of my improvement in my writing. but i am not longer invested in the story, not enough to justify spending hours writing dispassionately about it. if i were to continue it, i would want to continue it with interest, that way i put out respectable work. decent writing is what my readers deserve, and anything less i’m just not willing to put out. but i know i wouldn’t be able to write anything of quality (to my own standards) with the lack of motivation.