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edward, you have no idea how much i needed that, yesterday wasnt a particularly good day for me. and waking to this truly was beautiful.  i love how much i mean to you because you mean just as much to me. i'm glad i found you that day and my weird ass decided to harass you. you were probably so creeped  out but i regret nothing, because by doing that i managed to gain you as a friend and that's worth everything to me . you're one person i can turn to , when things are bad and expect nothing but love in return, i love our relationship, i love how i can love you without regret.  so thank you edward , for loving me , for not leaving    me , and for being my friend.

dear edward ,
          so i really went and made you this account. i was planning to leave your other account up but yara changed it and i didn't realise until today. point is, i wanted you to have some way to reach me. you probably wont ever see this but if there's even the slightest chance, i'll take it. i dont know why you left so suddenly, i wont pretend it didnt upset me because it did. but let me explain myself. during the last few days i didnt text you as much and that's because i saw you needed to leave. you had uni and a social life and you found it impossible to balance it all  together. still you tried to talk to me. i know you attempted to leave once but you came back - why ? because you missed me . but i knew it was hard for you to balance it all even though you didnt admit it and so i stopped texting you as frequently. i didn't want to hold you back when i know you needed to move on. and know you have moved on, and i know it's selfish of me to say this - but i miss you. i miss bullying the crap out of you and having you only ever return it with kindness. i miss clowning each other and me being your knight . i miss how you'd stay up late and we'd text each other, and how you trusted me with things that it would not have been easy to share. i miss the love you gave me , and your care . but most of all i miss us. and even if you're gone, i won't ever forget you or what you gave me - what we had. in my memories and yours too i hope , we'll live on as kingward and his knight ; 
          ace and edward ' .  ' 
          here's to the forever we never got the chance to fulfil. 
          i love you .