kirishoo
i wish i were prettier and smarter and more charming for her
kirishoo
kirishoo
I think i just lost the love of my life!!
kirishoo
i feel like the way i explained that i feel like im barely in her life bc we hardly have time together came out the wrong way and was taken the wrong way
kirishoo
im so annoying!! why do u keep talking! stop talking!! SHUTUP!!
kirishoo
i feel so alone
kirishoo
i feel like everyday is a punishment. i shouldn’t be here. they shouldn’t have to talk to me or see me
kirishoo
i hate my own company. im so boring. i obsess over things that made me happy when I was half my age in fleeting attempt to feel comforted
kirishoo
i wanna disappear the way a roblox character flies off the map in natural disaster survival
kirishoo
i feel hideous :(
n0_thnks
HEY omg idk if you remember me but hii it's max!!! this is the worst means of contact ever but i miss u bunches
kirishoo
it’s literally so disgusting to me that i have these thoughts but i do :( way more than i did before i was admitted to this campus, if i even did at all anyway
intrusively fantasizing a reality where my skin is lighter, more even. my body is more curved, defined and absent of large folds. a reality where my hair is fine and my voice is dainty, where my feet are small and my thigh gap is large. I’ve always had baddd self image problems, but it never had to do with my ethnicity, or my race. now they do, and it scares me and disgusts me all the same. where’s my pride? why does it frustrate me so much that people can’t see beauty in these things? i don’t like how much these thoughts occupy my mental space throughout the day
kirishoo
I just want to love her again
i want her to talk to me about her day and her hair and her bellyaches and her manga and her friends and her trips and her dogs and her family
kirishoo
that wattpad premium rate is CRAZY