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Just wanna let you all know I’ve been working on my James Hetfield fic (don’t get mad at me for not updating Creeping Death pls, I just needed a change) it’s looking super freaking good so far! I’ve written 4 chapters and this time I’ve actually got lore and character arcs and I know exactly what I’m doing. I can’t wait to be able to share it with you all.
Right now I’m supposed to be writing an essay on Romeo and Juliet and I might jump off of my balcony lowkey. I turn 16 in two days so I guess I’m excited but I’m really not doing good at the moment medically speaking. The amount of blood tests I’ve done this year is ridiculous and I don’t want anymore hospital visits. The past couple of days have been so stressful as I’ve developed some new fucked up symptoms had to book an emergency appointment with my GP then get an urgent set of blood work done at the hospital and I have another ultrasound in a couple days and I have an endoscopy next month.
I haven’t been to school for a couple days and although I’m the happiest I’ve been in ages or at least I should be I still feel like shit, like empty or something I dunno (soz, bit emo). It’s whatever. I just want to figure out what’s wrong with me. Could be endometriosis, could have cancer, maybe my kidneys aren’t working. Maybe this is completely unrelated to my other problems and I just have a UTI or some shit (omg tmi, my bad).
Doesn’t help that the Mötley Crüe and Def Leppard concerts which I had a chance of being able to go to are like next week and I didn’t get tickets to foo fighters which is in December. I also might not even get tickets to Iron Maiden for next year. 16 and I’ve never been to a concert, what a fucking loser poser. Its also annoying because all of my favourite artists are dead, dying or fossilising as we speak and I’m never going to get the chance to ever actually see them perform. Oh well, at least I’m not dead or dying…that I know of?
Thanks for letting me vent xoxoxo