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A sneak peek instead of actually posting that mafia ff. Kinda scared coz the whole story is going to be DARK romance. Also still experimenting with the POV so tell me which you like better. Anyway, here you go:
          
          
          “Will you marry me?” he asks softly, a stark contrast to the loud noises of guns and deaths outside your hiding spot.
          
          You couldn’t speak for a moment, heart seeming to beat louder at his question instead of the danger you’re in. “Are you… Are you serious?!”
          
          “I’m done pretending that I’m not in love with you.” His eyes narrow in affection as he pulls you safely in his embrace. “I’d kill my motherfvcking father and give you my empire. All of it, if that’s what you want. I’ll do anything. Just… Just take my hand.”
          
          Tears spring up your eyes in a hurry, nodding so fast that you even got a little dizzy. “Yes!”
          
          He smirks and takes out a hand grenade, pulling the safety off and throwing it towards the enemies blocking your path. Hand in hand, you run to the safety of your getaway car as pained cries and dust of smoke explode behind.
          
          He put the grenade safety ring on your finger and kisses your hand. “I love you.”
          
          You giggle at his antics and plant a kiss on his lips. “I do, too.”
          
          
          ^This is inspired by that one scene in Spy X Family btw. Now the question is: Is this Chan or Minho? Heh.

Thoughts on this intro for that mafia ff I asked about in my last post? Yay or nay? Should I keep it in 1st person or change to 2nd person?
          
          Title would be “I Want It All”:
          
          All my life, I’ve always dreamt of being Bang Chan’s wife. I’ve spent all my wishes on shooting stars, praying for him to love me back. He was older, wiser, and so much colder. Even so, he’s all I’ve ever wanted.
          
          If I were a princess then he would be my knight in shining armour. The most dashing of them all, as he valiantly fought for the right to my hand.
          
          I firmly believe that he’s the one for me, and I’m ready to give everything to him. He just needs to take it. I know that we’d be perfect together.
          
          If only we lived in a fairytale. If only he didn’t hate me.
          
          I wished he’d also smile at me with the same kindness he gives to everyone else. I wished his gazes would lose the same chill from his steel shield that I can never penetrate.
          
          I wished there would be more shooting stars to come because I desperately need the warmth.
          
          My fairy godmother must’ve finally heard me because she sent someone in burning blue. Lee Minho said he’d help me get all of my heart’s desires, offering to save the damsel in distress.
          
          Can a prince of deceptive charm really give me the happily-ever-after I’ve dreamt about and wished for all my life?
          
          I hope so, because I want it.
          
          I want it all.

Minho has always been attractive but his blurry pics are a different level. I think it’s the ~nonchalance~ coz why did I gasp and go “oh my god” just seeing that bubble message where he’s leaned back into the car seat and the image noise is cranked up to the top. *sighs dreamily*

Minho mafia ff or Chan mafia ff? The other guy will be the second lead to the chosen one heh.

What do you mean Mark Lee left NCT and SME? I know I said that I wasn’t as big of a Czennie as I was before, but dang, this is making me so emotional! He was such a huge part of my fangirl life, SM Rookies to NCT Life to his multiple debuts. I really hope it’s all for the best and nothing bad comes out of this news. We’ll miss you, everyone’s fave multitasker. </3
          
          On the more nerve-wracking end…
          
          Not to make everything about me, but I will actually go insane if anyone else leaves Stray Kids. I hope I’m not jinxing it by saying this, I’m just really anxious with all the Kpop happenings lately. I barely survived October 28th, 2019. I hope no one in Stayville will ever go through that again. T^T

I want Hyunjin for YSL not just coz it’s my fave brand, but I think the vibe suits him better than Dior? Him as Versace Prince was perfect tho. I’m going to miss that era. </3

I miss NCT. I was such a huge Czennie back in their debut days up until WayV, but I kind of had a “falling out” with them? Idk how to describe it, I still listen to them occasionally, but it’s not the same love anymore, you know? They’re even the reason why I discovered Stray Kids predebut… Ah, idk. I just miss them, especially EMPATHY era. They’re like a childhood friend you had fun with, then you both grow up and apart, and they might’ve changed for better or worse, but sometimes you’d get hit with nostalgia and start reminiscing those happy memories they helped create.
          
          Anyway!! This was prompted by me having second thoughts about removing Jungwoo and NCT in Clichéd. I’ve decided, for the final time, that I will keep it with only SKZ. I made it sound so dramatic when I was just going through my usual writer’s block lol.

Guys I was about to read taste by ellyrae but I was looking and hers and Felix romance percentage is higher than Hyunjin and Hyunjin is the lead so I ain’t reading it I cannot bc I refuse to read about breaking up besties aka hyunlix

I saw this writing prompt on Pinterest that goes:
          
          -6th song on a shuffled playlist is the plot
          -3rd pin on Pinterest represents your character’s personality
          -12th song on another shuffled playlist represents the antagonist
          -4th video you see on YT represents an aspect of the setting
          
          I kid you not, I’ve tried this five times and the fanfic gods may or may not be trying to tell me something coz why did all those resulted in a dark romance/mafia-esque route?
          
          The songs in those five tries (no particular order):
          -Too Sweet by Hozier
          -Roman Empire by Bang Chan
          -American Wedding by Frank Ocean
          -Once Upon A Dream French Version
          -Obsession by EXO
          -Lust by Chase Atlantic
          -Pacify Her by Melanie Martinez
          -Sacrifice (Eat Me Up) by ENHYPEN
          -LET THE WORLD BURN by Chris Grey
          -Womanizer by Britney Spears
          
          The pins and YT vids are a mix of Chan-in-tank-top mirror selfies, SKZ and anime memes, and Leon S. Kennedy edits heh.
          
          I’ve always loved mafia fanfics but I’m afraid of writing them myself coz of the action and mature aspects. I’m way better with the lighter stuff but dark romance is such a guilty pleasure!! Maybe I should just bite the bullet and finally let my delulu reign.
          
          Ah, anyway! It’s very obvious which member I was thinking of throughout this whole thing lol, but I am yet again struck with indecision coz I WANT THEM ALL. I do know my limits so I’d have to stick with one for now. Sigh…
          
          Who in Stray Kids should I write a mafia fanfic for?
          
          (Top picks are Chan, Minho, Hyunjin, and Seungmin heh.)

I’m going to be so annoying screaming “EIGHT IS FATE YOU MAKE STRAY KIDS STAY YOU MAKE STAY STAY STRAY KIDS EVERYWHERE ALL AROUND THE WORLD SKRRRT SKRRRT ICE CREEEEAAAAM YOUR BEHAVIOUR IS SO UGH SEUNGMIN IN THE BUILDING I CAN SPEAK KOREAN YOU’D BE OPTIMUS FINE WAKEY WAKEY YOOOOOOOOH” around the house whilst SKZ music is blasting in the background.
          
          Kidding aside…
          
          Happy 8th Anniversary to Stray Kids and Stay!!
          
          I can’t believe I’ve been staying with the boys for eight years now, and I hope that we’d still have more time with them. They might call it parasocial but this fandom helped me through lots of ups and downs in my life. I’d probably go insane if I didn’t discover them lol. I may not know them or you personally, but I love you all just the same. Let’s step out and enjoy this day!! T^T♡