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So over the years/months I've never been shy to talk about my mental and physical health cause long story short it sucks... so I started writing a lot and I loved it Shadowhunters helped me through the tough times and when I needed it the most... I lost it but I have great people around me my boyfriend my best friend (which I will get to in a little) and I loved writing reading your comments and hearing what you thought about the book and over the years... I lost that, I don't know how I don't know when (but I know somethings starting right now! Sorry disney reference) but I lost it and seeing people a year after I wrote this book still commenting on it, it makes me so so happy, it makes me regret that I stopped writing, it makes me wanna hit myself for stopping, cause knowing people loved my books gave me hope and life to be very honest. And i just wanna go back to that, change happens to a person to everything and everyone around us, but I'm trying really really hard to find my passion for writing again, finding what originally drew me to shadowhunters to malec to my passion, I do wanna take a moment to plug my twitch twitch.tv/starkelpie I stream as often as I can so if you want drop a follow, for now I wanna go over to the second point I wanna talk about, my anxiety and how it's skyrocketing right now...