@konagirl360 I am very sorry for your loss. On the 15th of August, it will be 6 years since the day my father died. He was only 28 and I was only 10. I know how you feel and I want to let you know that it does get better in a way that you will feel comfortable talking about it in several years or so, but it takes time. Let yourself grieve. I didn't and I think that took a toll on me. Stay close to family and friends. I hope you do have friends because I know that those help. I had no friends at all at the time of my father's death and you know how hard it is to talk to family. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and I hope that you will be able to smile more than I could. Sending my love and I'm here if you need to talk.