Hi , it's been so long since everything. I feel so nostalgic and disheartened when I saw my last post. So I am going to write this for future me who will come back and read it someday. I love you. You are strong. Be there for yourself. Try to put yourself first. If things get worse and you again find yourself in that hellholes don't give up. Don't lose hope. But do give up if they are not there. Don't try to be brave when it's not needed. Be your safe space. Don't get lost in this world where I can't find you. I would be so sad to know you are not you anymore. But if you do change cause of circumstances do know that my acceptance and justification does not matter much. Live for yourself. Even if the whole world judges I shall be the one who is on your side and will always be. I would have liked saying I am proud of you and will be but I know that's not the truth no matter how good it feels to hear it. But I can confidently say no matter how much you hate yourself I love you from the bottom of my heart. So do what you want as I am here to support.