kristybaucom56

I guess this is the safest place to do this because you will never see it. I love you, I loved you, and I will always love you. Things between us have always been complicated some of it was because of distance but most of it was because of my dumb ass decisions. Just know that I never meant to hurt you and seeing you was both one of the best things and one of the hardest things in my life to do. To look into the eyes of someone you had spent so long dreaming about and then they meet your expectations... it was almost too much to bear. That weekend let me know that what I felt about you was real and that no matter what I do no matter how I try right then, and even now as im writing this is not our time. You are like the one that perpetually got away.  I want you so bad but you are always just out of reach. I want you to know that everything we have and had was real and that i wish with everything I am things were different... but at the moment its not in the cards. I love you very much and im sorry for all the pain I have caused.

that was a long ass chapter I just wrote and i did it in like two days

@smoothharris90  truuuu ok deddy I'll read it