@kuprumnathor
There is this moment when I'll just mumble, write and talk to myself about everything tht bother me. It always such a relief whenever I did it. Indeed, yourself is the one who will always support yourself and convince you over any doubtful moment. Trust yourself, spilt it out. The calm-vibe come next. Hah
There will always this kind of people who'll badmouthing if someone speak majoring in English (im malaysian. english isnt our main languange) as show-off kind of person. How will this such narrow minded people would ever vanish from the world ? Did they ever heard the saying ' practice makes perfect ', ever ? Speaking in English doesnt makes someone any better from anyone. We're just learning, practicing and experiencing the confidence vibe for even once. For most of the time, I still feel my English is terrible especially when I realize tht Im so lack in vocabs. Indeed this is the moment where the learning process started, literally. I go through the dictionary, internet or simply asking others wht this and tht means. It somehow teach me to be tough, for lowering my ego and got those new knowledge. Yet, it never a waste to learn. Neither you do good nor bad, people will talk. Sometime wht others talking doesnt matter. The decision is all yourself.
Dont pity me. I feel like my precious pride was beneath my feet. Im not such a loser even if I didnt get what I want. I somehow realizing the priorities and decided to letting go what I shouldnt keep.
Somehow i feel like she wanna compete with me. Like seriously duh, im one of the gentlewoman kind so yes, go on. I realize you got all the attention offered, and even his mother approved you. Go on, as I did realize Im not tht kind of person tht will deny the fact which you sure better than me. I admit it all along. Dont try to make things worse by doubting your feeling and offering such useless advices for me instead. I wont listen. EVER !
♡Encik Rahman Puan Rajinah♡ May Allah give me a chance to make both of you proud and happy. Amin
