Sorry I havent been updating guys, guess i've just been so busy finishing up with collage that I just havent had the time.
Now I've said that I can say this:
So at collage things got pretty bad just before easter. Nothing to do with the people (well on a concious level anyway) I just hated it and didnt want to be there and ended up in tears every day. It got to the point where I was making myself physicaly sick I was so upset and I didnt even know what i was realy upset about other than being angry at myself for being upset. So yere...
Anyway tuesday this week was my first day back after easter (2 week break) and I went in, smiling and chatty, laughing and all that. And one of the girls turned to me about halfway though the day and shocked me by saying, "Your happy."
The way she said it wasnt a question, or a joke or a sarcastic remark. It was a statment that made everyone turn and give me this odd look. and it made me think.
Before easter was I realy that misrible?
So misrible that just me smiling realy shocked everyone once it was pointed out.
Yere I guess I must have been but I didnt realise it at the time. I dont know what changed over easter (though the break from collage no doupt helped) and it kinda scared me that i hadnt realised how bad I had been.
Anyway i hope you all had a great easter, I'll update when i can, promise :D