hey lol

It’s been two years damn

I haven’t been on here in months-

i haven’t been in here in a minute ☝️

ykw i’m pretty sure sums 4 is therapy for me bc i give the families happy relationships unlike my family ‼️

gotta constantly remind myself that there’s no murderer in the house and that it’s all in my head  lord i’m tired

i stg i’m losing i always feel like i’m being watched and it’s terrible i’m literally getting so scared and my anxiety is getting worse again, it feels like i’m being suffocated. literally i do not have the mental stability for any of this and it’s so mf scary like i just want to hide in a place we’re i feel safe and not feel like i’m being watched all the time.

just found out he is getting surgery soon. i’m now terrified.

my anxiety is making me spiral a bit bc my parents are talking ab my grandfather who just got out the hospital a few hours ago and i’m really scared, i lost my great grandmother (his mother) a few months ago and i literally didn’t take that well. i can’t lose him, i literally can’t. i will deadass lose all hope in life. i love him and my granny (his wife) more than anything. i rather live with them than my own parents

i just went to the doctor- talking to people is literally so difficult for me that the nurse said that they could recommend a therapist also my life is a lie i thought i was 5’7 but i’m 5’4 and a half 

THEYRE GONNA EXECUTE BRANDON BRENARD.  I HATE IT HERE. WHY ARE THEY KILLING SO MANY PEOPLE OF COLOR FOR? HE DOESNT DESERVE TO DIE. I THOUGHT THEY WERE ALL “pro life” BUT NOT ONLY THAT THEY LET KYLE RITTENHOUSE GO. HE KILLED TWO BLACK LIVES MATTER PROTESTERS, GOT RELEASED AND CONGRATULATED? WHAT THE HELL. I HATE THIS MF COUNTRY.