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@ARTSICKS | YES ty for reminding me of my purpose

to create yourself and get high ! 

like wtf why am i here

@kusuosupremacy  say it louder for the people in the back sis <3

not so good at the moment :'> we are having lab practical exams + theory exams the next day — & m dying from major procrastination and keeping everything else for the end which sucks but i still do it ( i need to stop ) & m also binge watching a lot of kdramas— daydreaming abt a future that's too perfect and worrying abt placements — YEP I M NOT FINE :/

aw its fine love <3 i honestly forgot we even had a conversation in the first place :'D n e ways i dont wait around for people to reply - ive got a life! how are you love & peace be upon u too <3

i am wishing you all the best in your journey in life <3 things may get tough but its not your fault & that's sometimes just how life is - nothing and noone is perfect except for christ & we are just lucky to believe in  a perfect being like him.

@kusuosupremacy, I kind of act similarly. Out of cortesy, I greet and treat people respectfully, if I sense they dont reciprocate I turn around and continue living my life. On the surface, it seems I dont care, but I cant take it out of my system for a long time. Sometimes, it even conditions the way I relate with new people in the future, cause I feel rejected bf even being rejected. Tbh Idk how to not take things personally, everything that affects me becomes too personal for me, even sth as stupid as a random coworker treating me kindly and then totally ignoring me when others told them they dont like me. Relating with people Is challenging for me :/

@Sabakunodreamer | yesss!! ppl think when you stop caring, they can walk all over you and do whatever tf they want to you like you don’t matter. being assertive when needed is necessary!! but honestly ppl don’t have to respect me, ima just distant myself bc ion have time to force somebody to respect me. if they feel like ion deserve their respect, that’s fine ima just go somewhere else bc im worthy of respect, especially if im giving it to others. but my sensitive ass WILL definitely cry if somebody disrespects me i can’t help it lmaooo im learing how to not take things so personally

@kusuosupremacy, exactly, we are part of the universe but we are important no matter how big everything Is, we are valuable and worthy of care and respect. Especially self-respect. Cause  if we dont understand this, its very common to get caught up in other people's expectations and feel we owe them to be the way they want. And I dont like it. I dont like thinking Im not enough being the way I am, that Im wrong for just being and I should do a complete makeover on myself. I've noticed that I need to do all these things to make people treat me right, you know? Smile even Im sad, wear make up and trendy clothes, show with my attitude that I like myself and many other things I could do and do sometimes, but not all the time cause its not who I am 24/7. Im intermitent. But I dislike so much the fact that if I relax a little, nobody respects me anymore. If I dont put on a diva's attitude, even people shorter than me wants to stomp on me!! If I dont wear make up and tight clothes, men dont act polite or willing to help. If I dont look smiley and cute, other women dont speak to me in a nice way. I already have issues with the way I want to see myself, and how I want to be. Adding other people's outlooks on me is just too much. I, just like you, want to be part of the universe, peacefully. Just thinking I have to pretend so much to make the "universe" accept me makes me wanna be a hermit for good :0

& i love you ml <3

i've missed you sweets <3 u r well!

how has things been for u love ?

& even when things are not going my way ( it never does ) i m just gonna keep going

@vitiosvs | no problem my love <3

@kusuosupremacy, yeap. My least favourite one Is a young girl who has a three year old baby using the phrase ' Im going to die from sth anyways' everytime she has a cigarette or a piece of cake or gets dehydrated or anything she does. I understand shes like a teen and shes not dying from cake anyways!!! I just think that a mother of a baby speaking like that Is so stupid I feel Im the one dying from second hand stupidity everytime I hear her speaking like that. Ik she just wants to be perceived as cool, but guuuurl wtf!!!

@Sabakunodreamer | mhmmm, no personality but they dont care cause they think that they gon get attention acting the way they do

@kusuosupremacy, just like that. When one of them looks at me like saying ' yeahh, Im so special cause Im sooo cold and cool' I just think ' damn, go buy yourself some personality, oh too bad you cant buy that' look the other way to show how much I care. Is it really kind of cool now? The nonchalant thing?