kusuosupremacy

read if interested, 
          	no pressure
          	<3
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vitiosvs

dear gabby,
          
          hope life is treating you well <3 about thay depression problem i had — well i had a horrible case of vit d deficiency and now i am back to normal — i am doing everything i can to survive & get thru the winter & my college. i so dearly miss talking to you & i hope everything is going well for u. God is w you & he cares for u. he loves you & won't ever leave your back. i miss you but m always here whenever you wanna talk. 
          
          
          w all the love in the universe,
          ray ♡

vitiosvs

hi love,

vitiosvs

thank you so much love for that beautiful message... that's probably the best thing i've seen on my message board today and the whole day. i am so grateful to have someone like you, even though its on the internet. yes, it must be seasonal depression, the winters are painful and i can't handle it one bit... i usually suffer from low vitamin d as a result but now m just hoping all of this would end and soon it will be march ( the winters last as long as 3 months here ) - i know its tough for us but yes, we are God's children and he will never forget us. in all this confusion and loneliness we have one friend that will never leave our side <3 it's no one but christ himself. give yourself the love and peace too: i don't know everything about your side of the world but i know that you are trying your best to the full extent and whatever it is that you put your effort into will reap blessings and greatness, my love. stay strong for the ones around you: it's not easy but then again, nothing ever was. life is this way. and it's better to accept it and move on: doing the best we can everyday <3
            
            
            ( i love you so much <3 stay strong and stay warm. we will make it through the winter! )
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vitiosvs

life has been tough lately, so many things to do — so many things making me question my existence at this point , i m not doing so well actually , the winter is having a bad effect on my mental health — i haven't slept for long , i m not interested to study i much either, i just wanna sleep and sleep
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kusuosupremacy

being african american is a blessing. the resilience of our people will forever be something i admire and cherish. ever since our ancestors stepped foot on colonized soil, we built ourselves up from nothing, creating a culture that seeps into the everyday life of millions of people, influencing even outside our community.
          
          despite the dysfunction in our community, nothing feels like home more than my people and my culture. 
          
          good morning to my black people only /j 
          
          i love yall

kusuosupremacy

who even am i

kusuosupremacy

@ARTSICKS | YES ty for reminding me of my purpose
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ARTSICKS

to create yourself and get high !
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kusuosupremacy

like wtf why am i here
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vitiosvs

ok i miss you love </3 come back!

vitiosvs

it's been long , how has life been treating you ? is everything good ?
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vitiosvs

hope my love is doing well <3
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vitiosvs

thank you love <3 just reading those words form off my screen makes me so happy and relieved - i feel at home when u say those words :'> i am wishing the same to you too - whatever obstacles come our way we will rise above them all!!
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kusuosupremacy

“i was no longer needing to be special, because i was no longer so caught in my puny separateness that had to keep proving i was something. i was part of the universe, like a tree is, or like grass is, or like water is. like storms, like roses. i was just part of it all. i had my unique function to play. i could see from there that everything had a unique form – it was all just lawfully playing with each other. all forms were related lawfully, i could see which “me” in form was part of the law. nothing more, nothing less.” 
          
          changing lenses, ram dass

Sabakunodreamer

@kusuosupremacy, I kind of act similarly. Out of cortesy, I greet and treat people respectfully, if I sense they dont reciprocate I turn around and continue living my life. On the surface, it seems I dont care, but I cant take it out of my system for a long time. Sometimes, it even conditions the way I relate with new people in the future, cause I feel rejected bf even being rejected. Tbh Idk how to not take things personally, everything that affects me becomes too personal for me, even sth as stupid as a random coworker treating me kindly and then totally ignoring me when others told them they dont like me. Relating with people Is challenging for me :/
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kusuosupremacy

@Sabakunodreamer | yesss!! ppl think when you stop caring, they can walk all over you and do whatever tf they want to you like you don’t matter. being assertive when needed is necessary!! but honestly ppl don’t have to respect me, ima just distant myself bc ion have time to force somebody to respect me. if they feel like ion deserve their respect, that’s fine ima just go somewhere else bc im worthy of respect, especially if im giving it to others. but my sensitive ass WILL definitely cry if somebody disrespects me i can’t help it lmaooo im learing how to not take things so personally
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Sabakunodreamer

@kusuosupremacy, exactly, we are part of the universe but we are important no matter how big everything Is, we are valuable and worthy of care and respect. Especially self-respect. Cause  if we dont understand this, its very common to get caught up in other people's expectations and feel we owe them to be the way they want. And I dont like it. I dont like thinking Im not enough being the way I am, that Im wrong for just being and I should do a complete makeover on myself. I've noticed that I need to do all these things to make people treat me right, you know? Smile even Im sad, wear make up and trendy clothes, show with my attitude that I like myself and many other things I could do and do sometimes, but not all the time cause its not who I am 24/7. Im intermitent. But I dislike so much the fact that if I relax a little, nobody respects me anymore. If I dont put on a diva's attitude, even people shorter than me wants to stomp on me!! If I dont wear make up and tight clothes, men dont act polite or willing to help. If I dont look smiley and cute, other women dont speak to me in a nice way. I already have issues with the way I want to see myself, and how I want to be. Adding other people's outlooks on me is just too much. I, just like you, want to be part of the universe, peacefully. Just thinking I have to pretend so much to make the "universe" accept me makes me wanna be a hermit for good :0
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vitiosvs

thank you my love <3

vitiosvs

i've missed you sweets <3 u r well!
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vitiosvs

how has things been for u love ?
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vitiosvs

& even when things are not going my way ( it never does ) i m just gonna keep going
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