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i haven't been here for quite a while. i am supposed to be a sophomore in college now, but I had to stop due to financial problems. it's devastating but do I even have a choice? i'm feeling stuck & empty :(

it's been so long. i'm alr in college, a freshman and it's already so draining. adulting sucks. a lot. since 2017 im always full of rants here and nothing's changed, i still don't like myself. i hope all's well for all of you ! 

ayoko na maging abala at pabigat sa mga tao, alam ko kapag nawala na ako hindi na sila mag iisip kung ano ba kailangan nila itulong sakin, tatanggapin nalang nila na wala ako. mas madali yun no?

masyado ko pinipilit sarili ko

onti nalang, malapit na.

yoko na mag suffer

ayoko na ng ganito

bakit ba ganito

ngayon nasasaktan at nalulungkot na akong maging ako, sobrang nakakalungkot

bawat pag iisip ko rin nsasaktan ako