yumin

Aw bb I laub u too, my dud.

ive never been so honest with how much i feel as a writer and whatever but its 1 am in my place and i cant be more honest  than today. lately ive been getting tired with who i am, my capabilities, my skills, what i can do, whatever tuff about e. ive always felt like nothings going anything the way i want it to bo and i dont know hw to even begin to think about it nor to solve it so just leave it like that and it just gets worse and worse and i still havent made a way to fix this issue growing within me. its like im losing trust on myself, that im never gonna be better and all. but later on i would think that it takes time to prove yourself but the point is, im taking WAY TOO MUCH TIME and shit im just stuck at this point. i hate me, my works, my edits, my educational career, my hobbies, everything. its all just crap and  i know they are but im completely helpless and lost and i believe none or nothing will be there to even save me at this point. and u know what? its okay. cause its been like this for a while and im coping, its just that as i do, i cause myself a pain no one is respoinsible for so i heal it myself too. and it all just gets exhausting until i dont wanna do anymore either.

Hey, haven’t spoken in a while. You still got that insta account ?