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I be missing you 

boys ain’t shit. 

imagine literally being ghosted in real life. 

lol the a few guys at my school think I’m a bitch but like not in a bad way. I just seem like a very intimidating person according to them so like... maybe I should work on my personality? 

• so more deep thoughts. 
          
          i was at a school event and an ex-crush of mine is there. i liked him for two years and then an incident happened last year between us and it was never really the same. 
          
          i’m at this event and i dunno why but i’m just hating him more than usual. all my friends notice me tense up when he appears and ask me why i hate him so much because i told them that the whole incident was behind us. so i just explained i don’t know why i hate him. they think i like him again and that’s why i hate him, but i genuinely dislike him. 
          
          but maybe i don’t dislike him but i hate myself and i’m taking it out on him. maybe it’s because i wonder what i lack that made him not like me back. so yeah. 
          
          

• saw a cute barista at my local cafe. waiting for a cute romance now

• school just kicked me and fucked me sideways. it’s only the first day and i already had 2 hours of homework. 

• i’m trying to go to sleep but every time I lay down without my phone, I think about school. I dunno why but whenever I think about it, I get super anxious and super scared to go back. I wish I could just go to sleep and not think about going back but it’s all that ever crosses my mind now. 
          Hahaha we love deep thoighys at 3:40am. 

• i impulsively bought silver hair dye and imma use it.
           i hope i don’t look ugly as hell lol. 

so uh, how do i remain calm during stressful situations?