heiya

what if i try writting

i wanna sob.

i did it. Im sobbing. I feel so guilty, so bad. I feel awful

i love you. yet im loosing feelings
          talk to me and it will come back.
          if u dont, i'll break up with u.
          then i'll be the bad guy. 
          and everyone will be at ur side.
          im afraid id get harassed by your friends.
          i dont wanna suffer soon.
          But i want to spend christmas with you, 
          how when im loosing feelings?

dont even hesistate to deny my statements, i havd proofs againts hom

Have i crossed the line? Have i right?

Yuma. 2 days ago, cess, me, and stro confoted yuna. You were there but "didnt wanna get involve". This is why your relationship ended early becuase you also wouldnt speak up about it. Like yuma, all o want for you is to grow someballs and confront people. "I dont wana be incloved" oh my lord u already invlove ever in sinc ethe beging. Grow someballs and stop relying on us. 

Cai. I cant even fucking believe it, you were like my family. How could you. The audacity to switch up stories and involve innocent ppl like ira. I didnt expect that u were actually a manipulative bitch. I cant forgive you for the things you've done to hayaa, marci, maki, wao and the others. Yk what. Ur probably planning turning me againts them right? considering on how im slowly getting dragged into this drama that you started. Whatever you do, im always at hayaa's side. How dare you. i treated you like my family and this is what comes out? god im so tired.
          

Oh owen.. i thought you were a nice person. Do we look somesort of trauma dumping area? am i your therapist? are we a venting area? coz god fucking damn. Stfu for once pls. I dont wanna deal with you venting every single fucking day. It has made me shit uncomfortable.  The audacity to date maki when they are litteraly 13 and your 16. mind you, the age gap. God your relationship is so fucked up it that i thought it was satire because i didnt wanna believe that it was srs. Think about it oh my lord. No offense but ur so wrong for the things u did.

Look. Yuna, i dont fucking know what has gone into you but your an ass to deal with. I dont know why you dont want us ro worry for u. You ask why we worry becuase you said "why worry about me, im fine" like worrying is basic human emotions? Is it not normal to give a fuck about your friend? Damn. Our friendship has been slowly falling apart due to the lack of communication, and you say that arent on discord that much? Look. We all collectively agree that the time where jun joined, our friendship has been going shit. To the point we are left out. To the point that u dont even listen to us anymore. Dont give me that "im not on discord" excuse because mf i see you online shit tons of times. Probably talking with your s/o jun and neglecting us. Look, i have eyes everywhere. Ik everything, i wont hesitate to look for the truth. The day where you broke up with yuma changed my views for you. I have looked shit deep on to that. You made it look like that my bsf is just a "pass by time" dating bitch. How dare you have the audacity to break up with her only to move on and have another bitch in less than a week. The audacity to ask "can i still flirt with you" is fucking messed up. Your playing with her feelings. Dont even with me, you have been way close to jun that u were starting to neglect us. Ive seen those "ilys" comment on tiktok. Dont even get me started on how you were openly sharing tmis about your sex lives when we didnt ask. there might be ppl uncomfortable with the topic. What. Are you just gonna let us go? And throw us off the bush? PLS. WE LASTED FOR ALMOST 6 MONTHS ALREADY. PUT A GODAMN EFFORT FOR ONCE PLS.