l0nelylittlestar

About to update “drowning” and “the new kid”. I wanna reread what I have already though. Update soon

l0nelylittlestar

this message may be offensive 
To my love Jahseh, 
                                                Who could take my deepest darkest emotions and turn them into beautiful melodies. Who had the voice and heart of an angel. The living definition of misunderstood. Losing you has been the worst pain I have ever felt. I can’t imagine my life without knowing you. 
               I found you just as I was dying. Killing myself constantly on my mind. “I don’t wanna do this anymore” was the first song I heard that made me fall in love with u. “Wing ridden angel” connected to me on a level I couldn’t explain. So I started to slowly become obsessed with u. I waited and waited until they freed u. Then I watched and watched as you raged on tour all over the United States. I prayed when u had to return home early bc of ur cousin.
                In knowing you for a year, all the criticism I got from loving u ,telling everyone I knew about u, listening to ur music, and reading ur fanfics u have helped me more then ANY body else I’ve ever known. Jahseh I owe u my life. 
               I always said “if X died, I would too” well now ur gone and all I can think ab is u and me ending it all. Someone said “if X fans were going to kill themselves after he died then what was the point in his work” I know u would want me to live. “And be happy and take my message and positivity and live” Jahseh I apologize in advance if I don’t make it. If somehow live becomes to much to bear and I no longer wanna be here or I feel alone and I do it. I’m sorry ur work was not in vain it helped me stay alive. I just can’t possibly get through another hard time off of solely music. 
              I will always fucking love u Jahseh. 
                                                                      -Zion