hello hello. its been a while—like a long while. i’m sure some of you may be curious as to why i haven’t updated let alone been active on anything and well, it’s two parts. one, my mother was diagnosed with a late stage cancer last year. not terminal, but it was still a scary and upsetting experience from the middle of last year to the beginning of this year. now, although she has beat cancer not all is well. from having side effects like bleeding and frequent abnormal body changes to having a surgery just today for a stent it’s been rough. now as for the second part and i’m going to be really transparent but i’m just finding joy in writing. i’m not saying i hate it—but i’ll be honest when i say i don’t think about uploading much. and when i do, i get discouraged or bored quietly. i won’t say, i will never update again. bc that may not be true. but i will say, i can try. and it’s the most i CAN do right now but as a person who is no longer writing as a 16 yr old with ..crazy ideas but rather a 21 yr old its so different. even more when i also don’t find myself being much into the kpop scene. i still listen to music and whatnot but i cant say i’m downing content constantly or even at all. and stray kids are included under that umbrella. i don’t want to say i’m giving up on writing but i will say— i truly, genuinely don’t know what will become of my writing. and i hope that’s something everyone can understand.